To You I Give My Heart

By Reggie

7/10/2008

I have had a crying wind mixed with a moaning sun

The moaning sun was dear to me, she eased my tears

My crying wind penetrated my thoughts and my desires

But I couldn't win against myself or my lost love

I could not soothe the aches of the moaning sun

That glowing butterfly that flew away so quickly

Only to land in a hunters net and be taken away

She was captured with my heart in her hand

Love she did not desire or want, she thought it not so

It's not necessary nor it is important

In the end, only bitterness and despair awaited my cries

So far away from that land, I went seeking to find another

Princess who could light my dark world and fill it with love

Be that it happened soon enough, I sought another princess

She seemed fair and light, soft and gentle, very charming

The proverbs say that charm is deceitful; was I ever a fool!

With charming and tender words did I drink

Gulping down her desire to be loved and to give love

No one before here ever loved me so, not so possessively

Compromised my heart and my sanity, my foolish error...

I saw her star, that shining star, and got blinded by desire

So to a land that was far, far away

Where winds blow, sunflowers grow, and plains outgrow

I in persuasion sought that glow of a star

For a while, I seemed content

But I was miserable and rotting inside

Soon enough though, I would be free of this thing

It drained my heart and strength, I was suffocating...

Finally, when I could breathe, all seemed well

She wasn't my shining star but a rogue spark

Inflammed my passion and stirred up my heart

I finally let her be, to another floating heart she went to be

Many other princesses I found and sought

Some were as fair as the night sky, ripe and brown

Others were colors of the moon, glistening like marble

Maidens as beautiful as the sun

But as sour as lemons

In the land where princesses gather, there are many roses

Among the thorns of them, I only seek one rose

I tried picking many of them, but found myself bleeding

Some cut me to the skin

Others cut me in my heart

With a patch of forgiveness ointmented by love

I found the strength to endure and seek another

I say to myself, "Where is thy princess, oh Lord?"

I then decided to cease my search and lay down love

To the hills with contentment and thankfulness

I will rejoice in the freedom I have from suffering again

My heart is delicate, that fragile thing

Dropped too many times, poor stewardship on my part

Never again did I want to burden the heart of any

Though mine be fragmented, I, too shattered a bundle

I vowed never again to shatter such a fragile gift

And with my eyes to heaven and my hands on my heart

I spoke unto the Lord with all desire

"I can only go once more!

If this journey fails, then I will cease from it forever

I cannot tarnish the princesses of thy kingdom

promising them my heart if they are not mine to receive

So, Lord, just once more.

This shall the last for me

In Your time and in Your way,

I surrender all, but I will not pursue another.

No more shall I endure a heart full of tears

No shall I give out shards of hurt to other princesses

Let this next be last, or find my heart buried in sand

Guarded with keys and chains

Until You, Yourself Lord, come and release me

For I am desire to not hurt another and I as well

Let this last be it, for I am done searching

It's all in Your hands now, for I can longer go on."

As the birds travel from east to west, west back to east

When the snow fell from the sky until rain fell down

Lasting until the sun baked the earth and winds cooled it

I sought to put myself before the Lord

My Judge and Redeemer, I laid before Thee

My heart, soul, mind, strength and being

I entrusted Him to keep watch and put me in His care

Until oneday another princess comes along

Surely...shall I ever find her to be

the woman I sought, longed for, and desired

Surely, this will be long...

Then one day, as though heaven opened her doors

God saved His best for last

Another princess comes to my door

Through invitation and providence, I found her

Among many that I examined, she well became apart of

Out a dozen roses and lilies, she stood out

In the beginning we shared our portraits of character

Through careful guidance and trust, we stuck out to the end

Finally we shared through invitation our resolves

I wasn't expecting a rose to last all year

But this rose was truly one that was strong

She was youthful, gleeful, and very solid

What made this rose so powerful, I said.

Surely, can this be the hand of the Lord?

I desired to follow through with this notion

I sought her ought and she sought me

This rose is more than a stem and petals

But full of purity, excellence, and light

A light shines from her, it makes my heart smile

Even on the dim nights of trials, her heart makes me smile

As time goes one, I noticed how glowing she was

I felt something arise in my heart

It was wonderful, joyful, passionate

I had never felt such awe in this same way

This resembled something I had once felt

This was something I had forgotten

I thought I didn't have the ability anymore

To feel like this, intrigued and warm

Is this...happiness?

Why do I feel this way?

As I planned to visit the town of hills

That small place among the villages of winds

I will meet her soon...

Never before did we meet

But soon that will fleet

As we prayed and sought the Lord's answer

Something happened, I can't explain it!

I found myself caring for such a lovely rose

So delicate, so rich, so sweet, so warm

We bonded in our time

She is so far, yet she is close to my heart

I begin to feel high, like I'm flying

There was no doubt, no fear, but only trust

I found myself tending her desires and heart

Looking out for what was best for her

Thinking only what I can do for her

Thinking that she was more important than myself

I sought only to have her best interest at heart

I then found myself on the floor

Interceding for her heart and future

Those strange things happened again, I began to cry

What was this feeling...I've felt it before!!

I remember my doubts and I remember being uncertain

But then I didn't care, trusting God was all that mattered

I was going to take a risk, God's guidance leads me

In the end I'll find out, let her be there too!

For now I will commit myself to her

I have made up my own mind

Even though I know it will cost me

Is she worth the risk? My life says yes!

No more crying wind, the moaning sun has ceased

The shining star has faded, and the princesses of youth

They have all fled into the wilderness

The only one that remains now

Is a rose that is full of spirit, courage, love, and trust

From head to toe, she is filled with the love of the Lord

With her prayers and support, she caught my eye

With her understanding heart, she wooed my mind

With her selflessness, she captured my heart

Pursuing God and what He had for me, is what she wanted

I couldn't stand it any longer!

For so long I thought this was impossible!

For so long, I didn't think this would happen!

She has captured my heart and all that is in it

Even though I have not seen her face

Nor touched her lips or caressed her hand

My soul rejoices because of her!

I long to be with her, I long to capture her

A princess as rare as this is worth to be pursued

This princess is one who makes my heart smile

I have never meet such a wonderful woman before

My new best friend, I thought, is this woman

I want to share all my dreams and desires with her

To her I want to go to help me smile

When I'm down and I'm in frown

To her I can go and get a crown

Thanks to the Lord's hand

I have finally found a woman that is worth my life

Even though I know it's early for us

I really want to pursue her with my whole being

As God leads us in His own way

Our destiny is in His hands

If I can't have her as part of my heart

I am willing to settle her as my right hand

But she has my heart now, that I'm glad

For the first time in a long time,

I am smiling sincerely

I am filled with happiness...

That word, that uncommon word in my life

Is so true right now

I am content in God, happy with Him

I am now at peace with life altogether

My feelings for her I gave to the Lord

And I asked Him to make them grow

Only to His will and not mine

Based on His will, not my emotions

So I decided that I wanted to pursue her

So I will indeed

I confessed my heart's desire for her

And she too has felt the same way

To the highest heaven, I feel like I can visit

So, let the mountains hear my yell

I am screaming out the name of the one I adore

Let the hills be silent, I am announcing a princess

Let the men of this world be warned

Touch her or I shall prick your rose

Let the Lord hear the joy of His servant

For God Himself has given me joy

God Himself has made His servant happy

For the first time ever, I am at peace with my heart

This brand new princess I adore and care for much

More than what money can buy

More than what rubies can be traded for

More than what I could ever want

More than my own desires

I soooo care for her much

When I think of her, my eyes light up

My soul shouts "Praise the Lord"

My feet started dancing

My heart leaps into the sky

When I think of her name,

I can't help but smile

I am filled with raw emotion

So that everytime I express how I feel about her

I find myself crying on the inside

Those tears still await to move out into the open

Regardless of what happens in our future

I have decided this one thing

She is worth the sacrifice

I will sacrifice the pleasure of my own world

My own space and pursuits

I will let her in and never close the door

I have decided that I"m through with self

I want to see her fly high in the Lord

Do great things for His name

Go far with with Him and seek Him forever

I want to her to have the best

Even if it's not me, but the Lord

To her I give my heart,

Even though it's a risk

I decided she's worth it

Because she is a woman who possesses His Spirit

She is worth it all, because she is a princess

I gladly give my heart to her

I want to do only what pleases her

I promised her indeed, her heart to spare

As payment, I gave her mine to do as she pleases

The outcome of our pair, it's all in God's hands

So as we prepared to meet, first in our history

I await the gladness of hearts

The passion of our souls

To finally sweep away the fear of butterflies

For her, I will do anything

for her, I will cherish

For her...I will grow to love

For her...I want to love

For her, Lord-willing, I'd give up my own eyes

Because I really, really, really, like her

I care about her more than a wolf cares for it's young

More than what a child cares for candy

More than what business care for money

To me, she's worth everything

If the Lord gives me the sign and time,

To me, she'll be everything I will ever have!

Finally, finally, I say...

After many years of searching and waiting

Could it be that I have finally found her?

Lord, let it be I pray, that she is your gift to me

Regardless of this, I give her my heart

Even though all I can say is care,

I hope to oneday say love

I hope, afterwards, that love turns into forever

To you, my smiling light, who blinds me with your heart

that loves the Lord our God

You have wooed me to the innermost and have revived

My sleeping heart

Did my heart not love til now, said Romeo

No Rosaline, nor Juliet can compare to this princess

My light, my Greek princess, daughter of the Most High

To you I give my most precious treasure, my heart

I want to say more than just I care about you, it is true

But as I wait, I say this with all my conviction

With my tears waiting to flood their bottle

With my heart burning down the walls of my pride

With my desire to hold you and finally take you as my own,

I simply say, with a trembling voice, cracking under the sun

"I care about so very much"

I dedicate this poem to my girlfriend whom I have started courting (that's the Christian version of dating) of just recent times. Helen, I thank you and I can't wait to meet you soon. I thank the Lord for you and I can't wait to see what He does in our lives as He continues to plan He has best for us. No matter what, you'll always be special to me. From me to you, my Helen of Joy, my heart I give to thee, hoping oneday to give you more than just that...namely, my bless you and I'll be praying for us daily! God bless!!