Charred Candy Hearts

Charred Candy Hearts

7-16-08

A/N: Every story has parts of it’s author intertwined… This one has parts of me, and parts of something that came seemingly from nowhere. Sometimes I’m not sure which pieces are which…

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And those charred candy hearts littered the ground

For days after the fair had already moved on

And I was the girl that came back to find you

But I found you were already gone

It was deserted, there in that space

And I could barely remember that night

You told me that it would all turn out okay

So I’m wondering why things aren’t alright

I just keep thinking about that box of candy

And how it became so much more

I had the innocence running through my veins

And you carried the jaded torch

I’m still unsure why I’m writing ‘bout this

Cuz’ it’s not as though they’d believe me

Sometimes things mean something even when they mean nothing

Then why does it feel like you’ve deceived me?

Suppressed like the fizz in a bottle of seltzer

Just waiting to be uncontained

And when I finally thought that you’d be there forever

My hope, like the torch, just went out in the rain

And I don’t know why it seems like I’ve lost something

When I never even kissed you- not once

I guess it was just that the stars reflected in your eyes

Oh, what’s the use? Your damage is done

So, now I’m standing here, and I’m not alone

I can feel someone standing behind me

Perhaps I should tell him the whole story

But I’m afraid that it would remind me

Of how perfect that moment was, that one moment

And of the fact that I don’t want to remember it ever again

Because in truth it was all just a flame-throwing act

And he thought that I thought of him as a friend

But that candy got me in trouble, like it often does

And that one simple piece that read…

I wish I could block it from my memory
But unfortunately, I remember what it said

It said something I wish I’d never felt

I wish I’d never even met him now

But we both know that’s a lie

And I still care, deep down

But I’ll never care like I did back then

Never, ever, ever

Because you think you’re everything I ever needed

And you think you’re just too clever

In truth, I was blinded by my infatuation with you

I should’ve known better than to chase what wouldn’t run

I just told myself that it was meant to be

And that it was all in good fun

But we all have to grow up sometime

And I grew up that night, as I ran back home

But sometimes I still pull out that bag of charred candy hearts

And it makes me feel even more alone