a/n: experimental; inspired by a few things, the main ones being the song ‘stay or leave’ by Dave Matthews (the first three lines are a direct quote) and the Bourne movies, particularly Identity and Supremacy… but overall it’s a mix of a whole lot of things in my head. concrit and comments of any sort are welcomed, as usual.

stay or leave
I want you not to go
but you should
& you did
& I do not blame you
my love I could not keep
these secrets I knew
they would tear you up inside

I’m not one of those
saints that can keep
their hands clean of blood
no holy rivers can bathe this skin
& you had a choice to make
my love I told you stay
or leave decide now
get in the car or come away

you turned & did not
look back at me standing alone
in the cold snow falling
like ash burning away my
blackened soul my mind plagued
these headaches crippling
my memories tainted &
splintered across the world

stay or get away
from this madness this
world I’m trapped inside
the bitch that bore me screaming
fighting for life fighting for
death in dark-lit streets
the filth of the cities I walk
on & on until oblivion

someday I will
end it & I will
find you I will

leave this hell
for good

& I promise I will
come back to you
& stay