I can taste the tension
rising, building
overwhelming
the air between us
thick and unnerving
I cannot breathe
it fills my lungs
like liquid poison
I really think
they are going to burst
my mouth is itching
to unload all my wrath upon you
the hate that cannot be contained
to let you know
what I’ve really been thinking
what I really think of you
and trust me
no, it won’t be pretty
trust me
it will make you cry
you are the catalyst
the inspiration
for a range of emotions
I didn’t know it was possible to feel
all of them negative
all of them murderous
all of them eating me alive

but I have to have to hold back
I must bite my tongue
and keep to myself
my opinions about you
see, I have no voice
at least you can’t hear it
and I have no choice
but to listen to you
as you scream in my face
and stab me with insults
that penetrate my core
you slaughter my happiness
you steal it away
and keep it for yourself

there are so many things you deserve to hear
so many things I can’t say