I'm stuck, stuck...
I wish you could understand
What it is you do to me.
I understand your feelings,
I understand the attraction,
But my choice is not yours.

No pressure? Sure, no pressure
While all I hear is how the shoe
Is ready to drop.
You share your heart - I don't mind it,
But because I listen doesn't mean I agree.
Because I care doesn't mean I consent.

How can I explain without seeming cruel?
What can I use to show you without seeming
As if all I think of is myself?
And maybe it's the truth.
Maybe... for once... I have my own life in mind.
You don't know me well enough to know how rare that is.

The signs were there from the start. We both know it.
You might be a fighter - pushing forward to take what you want.
But I am not a prize.
I am not a reward.
I am not a possession.
And I cannot fit into your cupboard
Merely because you deem it so.

I've let go of so much.
And now the time has come...
To let go of you.

Will you understand it? No. I know you won't.
Or maybe in the depths of you, you will know.
You've said it yourself.
"This is what it's been leading up to."
Only you're expecting the opposite.
How I wish you weren't.

Our paths crossed... God meant for it, I know.
But not for our paths to unite.

But with that being said, I can't hide behind God.
I've given up so many dreams... things you don't know of.
And you know that your way will mean for me
To release the last precious few.
I'm so sorry to disappoint you,
But I'm not prepared to.

I'm not willing to sacrifice all that is needed.
While you don't have to do a thing.
Sorry, it doesn't work that way.

So now I wait for the day... THE day.
Soon, so soon... too soon.
Were all must be revealed.
Will you be ready?
I hope so. God knows. I hope so.

31 October 2006