My fear…feelings on paper

I am scared

I am shallow

I am frightened of letting my guard down

I never get what I want, but get what I don’t expect

I am young , I am naïve, I don’t wanna shatter my heart at this point in my life

The raindrops fall, fall on my head, let this be a joyous message instead of me crying in my bed

For we all like to cry on rainy days, because it matches our mood of the sadness that reigns

I see a guy I fall in like, only learning he does not feel the same way

I guard my heart, I guard it with my life

But then I meet all of you, not even a love triangle, a love pentagon

Heart confused, mind confused, soul confused

Yearning for you all, but what is like ,what is lust

Especially what is love?? I don’t know, do you?

So let the rain fall down, let it trickle down my face, let it soak me

Soak me with its protection

For when the rain falls and I’m not sad, or confused, I am protected, until the time ….

The time when I know I’m ready to take this on, these feelings and all those things that come with your presence.

Until that time I am protected, by the rain and its creator