Screwed It Up Again

I don’t wanna feel like this no more.

I don’t wanna feel like you’re the one.

I’m tired of feelin like this inside.

I just wanna get on with my life.

I’m tired of believing in lost dreams.

I’m tired of guessing what this means.

I’m tired of your mind games, I’m tired of you shit.

I’m tired of everything I can’t go on like this.

I’m sick from missin you.

I’m tired from needin you.

I’m sorry for leavin you.

It’s not what I meant to do;

But I just can’t be with you.

You’re a cancer in my heart, you’re a virus in my head.

I think I would feel better if I was dead.

I’m sorry for what I did.

I’m sorry for what I said.

I’m sorry for loving you.

I’m sorry for leaving you.

But I just don’t know what to do.

I can’t go on without you but you can’t stay in my head.

I cannot go on lovin you, there’s another in my bed.

I cannot betray her, it would hurt so much she’d die.

But I can’t understand why every night alone I cry.

I can’t believe we’ve done this, I can’t believe we’re through.

I can’t go on without you, but I can’t keep lovin you.

I know now that you want me, I see what I couldn’t see.

This will forever haunt me but I know we can never be.

I don’t know how to miss you

when I still want to kiss you.

There’s nothing in this world I regret

more than leavin you girl.

But can’t you see you’re poison?

And can’t you see you’re wrong?

I know that you’ll forget me cause together we don’t belong.

What about your parents?

Can’t you see they’re right?

You were meant to have a husband,

I’ll never be your wife.

I know that you’ll be happy and someday I will too.

For now you’ve got to understand that being your friend is all I can do.

You’ll never take me back if she becomes my past

and believe me I can understand that.

I thought she was what I wanted

now I can’t be sure.

I’ve never felt with you

the way I feel with her.

I’m empty and I’m hallow

with no sedatives to swallow.

Where you lead I know I’ll follow.

But that can’t have been forever

you don’t know what you want.

I’m here for you for always but I’m lost along the way,

just know that I still love you and that’s all I have to say…

A/N: I wrote this in ‘03 for my girlfriend Chelsea. Wow what an old poem! Well R/R and lemme know what ya think! Laters!!

Sexy Sammy

Love, Luck, and Lollypops ;)