This World

This Cold Dark World

So full of contradictions

How am I even alive?

Why am I alive?

Some days I just cry

There seems like there is nothing to live for

Nothing is good

Nothing is beautiful

Nothing is innocent

Not anymore

Not now

I wish I wasn't part of this chaos

This hatred

This hell called earth

This race of demons called humans

Who ruthlessly tear out each other's throats

Just for a scrap of food

A piece of clothing

Why?

The pain in this world is unimaginable

The more I think about it

The more it hurts

I wish I could fix it all

Even if it cost my life

This World

This Warm Bright World

So full of contradictions

How am I ever unhappy?

Why do I ever cry?

Some days I just laugh

There seems like there's a reason for living

Everything is good

Everything is beautiful

Everything is Innocent

Here

Now

I'm glad I'm part of this peace

This Love

This paradise on earth

This race of angels called humans

Who give all they have to help others

Just because its right

Because they are happy

Why?

The beauty in this world is unimaginable

The more I think about it

The more I am amazed

I wish I could see it all

I wish I could keep it forever

Together

Pain and Pleasure

Hell and Paradise

Angels and demons

Life and death

Together

I confused mass of good and evil

Unable to be untangled

Unable to be discerned

Unable to be judged

Is it mostly good?

Mostly bad?

Neutral?

No way of knowing

There is no answer

Not now

There never will be

Not until the end of time

Then it will come to light

But it wouldn't matter then

Nothing will matter then

Or will it

Do we know?

Will we ever know?