You don’t know
That the whole way back
I wasn’t even driving
Ghosts guided me home
I feel like a shell of myself
Every muscle is jittering, but it’s not from the caffeine
Trust me on this

I never thought I would be one of those
Who were mesmerized
By your toffee brown eyes
And your dark chocolate hair
A curl of which fell into your face
And I wanted so badly
To reach over and brush it away
And touch your pale skin with my fingertips

And oh, in the car
I’ve never felt such feelings
As you ran your fingers through my hair
And we talked
I felt myself growing weaker
Right there, in your lap
In that parking lot
Surrounded by people
But it was only just the two of us
And I think right then, as you held me
I realized how much I really miss the affection
The affection I had become so accustomed to
I was beginning to learn how to live without it
But with every touch, the yearning blossomed in my chest
Sent my heart aflutter
(Why the heart?)
A sensation so familiar and yet so far away
I couldn’t fathom
Just how much I missed being touched
Until you touched me

And now I’m under a spell
A daze, a trick
Did you know you’re a magician?
I wonder if you realize
But I don’t think you do
I’m still in shock
Amazed that you could have this affect on me
And now I can’t get this picture out of my head
This dire craving for you to cup my chin in your gentle grasp
And put your lips to mine
For real this time
They look so soft and tender
A soft pink island in the midst of a dark forest of scruffy facial hair
How I long to vacation there
And never leave

And now I can’t think straight
You’ve altered my mentality
When we said goodbye, you didn’t notice
That a part of me was trailing behind you
Refusing to let you go
And I feel empty without it
It’s still at your tail
That fraction of my being
A piece of me is with you
And I think I want it back

Cause now I feel like I’m dancing when I’m only standing still