Pain Too Deep
I love him
He loves her
Is that not a likely way
A story goes?
But it hurts me
More than anyone could know.
The pain is becoming my friend.
It accompanies me
Everywhere I seem to go.
Sometimes I can ignore it.
Other times I can't.
It hurts me so deep
I think it's eating away
At my soul.
I want it to stop.
I want him out of my thoughts.
But I can't help but wonder
Why the pain haunts me so.
Could it be
That it's not meant to be
And that he will make it leave?
I couldn't count on it.
He likely wants me to be
What I feel-
Dead.

I wrote this back in June of 2008.