"Hang on. So let me get this straight. You cheated on me because you care about me?" Yea... I nodded and he laughed. "I really feel the love, Lalaine."

"Aaron, I know it sounds like bullshit, but it’s the truth."

"That's exactly what it is. Bullshit. You don't cheat on someone if you care about them." If it’s the only way to protect them, you would.

"You don't understand, Aaron. I-"

"I don't understand? I don't understand?! You're damn right, I don't fucking understand. How can you fucking cheat on someone you care about with someone you hate?"

"I had no fucking choice!"

"You had no choice?! Oh that's just rich. How the hell do you not have a choice in cheating on someone?" The look in his eyes was killing me. He was so angry, but he looked more hurt.

I won't cry. I refuse to cry. "Aaron, I care about you so much. I wouldn't do anything to hurt you. You have to believe me. I had no choice."

"Then why'd you do it? Why did you have no choice? What reason could you possibly have that would make me believe you?"

"I can't tell you." You have no idea how badly I want to tell you though.

"You can't tell me. Then, how the hell do you expect me to believe that you had no choice when you won't tell me why you cheated on me?"

"Because I can't, Aaron. I...You have to believe me...please, Aaron. I swear if I could tell you I would, but I can't. You have to understand." He just looked at me.

"No, you have to understand. I can't be with someone I can't trust." He...didn't. No, this isn't fair. I hate him!! I hate that bastard! This is all his fault!

"Aaron, please. Don't do this. Please." My voice was about to crack, so I stopped. I refuse to cry no matter how much this hurts.

"Too late. I already did." He gave me a disgusted look. "Why cry over something you caused to happen?" He walked away after that. I sighed, and stood there staring at the doorway.

He understood me, sometimes better than I understood myself. Hidden feelings are better left hidden, but then again, I don't think I was ever happier than when I was with Aaron. And, he ruined it for me. He messed everything up. He took away the person that means so much to me, and the person that holds the largest piece of my heart, the person that when I'm without I feel incomplete.

I'm going to prove to him that I would never hurt him. Even if it means that I get myself killed in the process.