Foolish me.

Foolish me, thinking I could have you.

I wished and I regret.

The things I said,

I didn’t mean to say.

The anger I felt,

I forgot who I was.

I wanted to leave my friends,

Leave who I was,

Just for you.

But you don’t even know who I am.

We have spoken,

But you seem to speak right through me.

I hate you for it.

But I still love who you are.

You make an attempt to know me but I show you a fake…

A shell…

A decoy…

Because I am afraid you’ll hate me for who I truly am.

I fear myself

A fear who I am,

For if people knew,

They would walk all over me.

I am ashamed of what I should be proud of.

I am angered at what I should love.

You’ll never see this.

But the words are still here.

This is the side you won’t know.

This is the side I hide.

Please forgive me if you find this.

But I just needed to say this all.