a.n- do you ever feel like your never going to be good enough for love?

step one: a normal girl, pretty eyed smart
girl, who just isint good enough to exist like
she is. at least, thats what they tell her.
so she strives to be

skinnier
prettier
smarter
better.

step two: her grades are rising, shes tired but
shes moving. the lack of calories must be getting
to her. they say shes prettier, but its still not good
enough, shes still a silly stupid little girl with a
sad, broken little heart. she must be

skinnier
prettier
smarter
better.

she must be perfect.

step three: shes a sick, emaciated, broken girl,
so far from normal. she calls to them for help,
but they turn away from their fuck-up and toward
their golden child-- he can do no wrong, he is

perfect.

she just wanted their love.

step four: death by failure.

was it seventy years too early
or just eighteen too late?