Author's Notes. My inspiration? Haha, secret. Reviews are very much appreciated. ;)

A Poem By An Ordinary Miracle.

Heart vs. Mind

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My mind is screaming, "Who cares about him?!"
My heart is screaming, "I do."

The day he came to my life was all too unanticipated
Fate yet again had its own plans
I had no intention of falling, when I knew no one’s going to catch me
But still I fell—and it was all because of him
How foolish.

Does it have to be like this? Did I have to get so hurt?
He made me like him so much
I dreamt of the moment that he’ll be mine
The moment I’ll belong in his arms
All of it was just pie in the sky
He never paid any heed to me
It just pains me to see that he will never notice
And when I try to stop thinking about him
Everything just flashes back again
Why can't I just forget?

My mind, it’s finally given up
It has finally realized that I didn’t want him anymore
However, my heart beats for him and it’s driving me nuts
It's not supposed to be this hard

Against my own will, I act carelessly
My body stiffens as I pass him
I was struggling to keep a calm façade
But inside, my feelings, they were all jumbled up
Like jigsaw puzzles of a billion pieces

I didn’t fall in love, I just fell for a trap
A trap that’s now caging me in a huge space of apprehension
An aura of shattered glass from which I long to forget
And I did, however, it seems that my heart won’t let me

I can feel it hammering inside my chest
Making me weak and vulnerable to feelings--
--feelings which I desperately act impervious to
Although what I was doing was futile
It just made me pine for that feeling, yearn for it

My heart and mind were in conflict
One is telling me that there’s hope, a chance
The other tells me it’s all over, no more

I am truly befuddled with sundry emotions
All because of him, I am perplexed with everything
Because of him, I just remain indecisive
Day by day, my own thoughts, I prevaricate
I just couldn’t decide whether to let go or hold on
As long as my heart and mind are in dispute
I remain... ambivalent