I am an oddity amongst men

though I still see myself as a boy

I have have seen much and such

that no boy should, I am tainted by

death and clean by life, I am but a

child at heart, and an adult in form

I feel what many shouldn't, and ignore

what many do not.

My heart a maze, my mind a corridor.

and my soul a room washed with grey

I am no long pure as the day I was born

I am but a slave to the dark, and yet free

in the light, my soul longs for that touch of

the one I shall love forever, but fears that

same touch. Many have died, I can feel that

Many live I see that but what will I do when it

is my turn at bat?

Shall I live?

Shall I die?

Only he who does not age knows, only he whom

I already love for he is the light, the dark, and the

only one that never shall fear for he is almighty,

but I?

I am but human, a slave to the body and soul can

serve neither for if I serve either I shall lose what

I see as precious, my humanity, my soul, and my

heart.

I serve none but he who is leader of all believers

I serve the Lord, but yet I fear only him too

Shall Darkness comsume me?

Or shall it strengthen me?

Only time will tell

Only the wait can tell

Will Light lead me to salvation?

Or shall it kill me?

Only time can tell

Only waiting will tell

Death, is it the end?

Or the beginning?

Only one way to know

But shall I open that door?

Life, is this all there is?

I don't know, but I think not

My heart is a maze my mind a corridor

my soul a room washed with grey

Shall I fall?

Or shall I raise?

Birth and Death

Two sides of the same coin

and yet we fear both,

we fear the birth of a new generation

and we fear our deaths

Why?

I am an oddity amongst men

yet I am a boy in my own eyes

I've seen death and seen a birth

I am inexperianced in life

but I rush forwards with what I know

I am return with what I didn't

Many have fallen many stand

how can I choose between life

when many people will gladly take

your choice away?

This world is a poison

and yet without it all will die

I wish for a world of peace

I will not roll over for the wolves

but rather meet them tooth and nail

I see the end and I see the truth

A path of shadows that ends in the light

A Light at the end of the road