This is a true story, taken from the diary of a girl that was later diagnosed with bipolar disease. Through these pages maybe someone can find help and hope that their situation is not hopeless if you just bear with it and pray. It took years for the diagnosis, and help, but when it did come it was the beginning of a whole new life.

Five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred

2. Free your mind from worries

3. Live simply

4. Give more

5. Expect less

Monday 5-7-01

Well, I went to the endocrinologist today. I have to have a thyroid scan done, but he says he thinks I may have a rare form of Grave’s Disease. That sounds like absolutely no fun at all. So, I’m taking some new medicine for the tremors, which thank goodness is only a mild shaking in my hands. I really hope everything turns out okay. I am so scared. What if something really bad is wrong?

They are probably going to kill me at work because I’m staying home tonight, but, oh well, they will live is all I’ve got to say. So other than that, things are really good. I’m dating a really nice guy named Kyle. I really like him a lot and so far things are going really good. I hope this lasts, he’s a great guy. Well, I’m about to pass out, I got very little sleep last night and I’m tires, so more later.

Tuesday 5-8-01 2:49 am

Okay, I’m awake, somebody called right after one and hung up. Just great! Well, I have blocked Isaac from sending me e-mail, next step is to get him blocked from calling me. I told my mom all about it today. I am really afraid of him. I just hope he doesn’t turn out to be one of those psycho’s who hunts people down. This crap has been going on since 1995. I wish he’d get a clue and leave me alone. I didn’t get to talk to Kyle tonight, but that’s okay I know how busy he is and I trust him so everything is good I just hope everything works out with him and my throat. I am so tired of worrying about everything. I just wish everything could be normal and go right for a change. We’ll see.

2:02pm

Ok, the more I thought about it I couldn’t help myself. I sent Isaac a long email and told him to basically get over it. We are never getting back together. I told him I blocked him from my email and I’ll change my phone number if he bothers me anymore. I can’t sleep, I’m all paranoid about my thyroid. Well, I’m going to try to go to sleep, or at least watch this movie and relax. I am so tired.