(A/N: based off of the song Ever by Emilie Autumn. I do not own the words in italics. Those are her beautiful lyrics.)

Opaque. Black. Dark. Hopeless. Damned. Rose.

Translucent. Clear. Bright. Faithful. Praised. Rain.

Me? Opaque.

You? Translucent.

They say opposites attract, right?

Then how come I don’t feel that you love me anymore? I feel that you hate me with every fiber of your being for everything you say to me. Those cruel jokes you play, and the fact that you tell me nothing anymore. You don’t even seem to care about who I am. How come I can’t feel you understand me anymore? I don’t feel you. I don’t get you.

Where the hell did this go wrong? This beautiful, beautiful thing that we once had. A feather in a heavy world, something fluffy and light and beautiful and loving. Where did it go? What did I do to lose it?

I want it back, more than anything in the world.

So I reach for your love, like the moon and the stars…

Ever in my sight…

Ever out of touch…

Will you take my hand? Will you reach out and catch me if I fall again? If I fall, fall, fall, deep down into the grasps of the demons which want my soul? Will you raise me up?

I can’t get your face out of my mind. I can’t shake it. I scream for you to hear me.

I never told you I needed you darling,

Like a rose needs the rain,

How could you possibly know how much?

You can’t. You can’t possibly know how much.

But I’ll never get you back.

When I say to the people who ask if I ever really truly loved you that yes, I did, they look at me.

They don’t recognize,

My words, they say I’m telling lies.

Maybe I’m lying to myself when I say I did love you.

Maybe I am,

Maybe I am,

All I know is…

I always think of you. I can’t escape from your presence.

You were ever in my mind,

You were behind my soul each time,

I held it to the flame…

You were forever in my precious thoughts,

I’d leave a room of angels,

Just to be alone,

If only to say your name…

I never told you I needed you darling,

Like a rose needs the rain,

How could you possibly know how much?

So I reach for your love,

Like the moon and the stars,

Ever in my sight,

Ever out of touch…