A/n- hmm...

Breaking Dawn Aftermath

My world is exploding out and crashing down around me.

I have finished Breaking Dawn.

I have finished-

I have...

Oh God.

... what do I do now? What do I do? It's finished. Done. The last page has turned and the cover has followed to lay flat against those final words- those two final words.

the end

I didn't think it would come. I wished it would, wished it over and over and over again. And now, as I sit and see the plastic-like cover winking smears of greasy finger prints of tears and sweat back at me I realize... I would take it all back. Back in a heartbeat.

Make it start over! Make it go again! Let it be Friday! No. Let it be years ago! Let it be before Twilight and let me realize once again that I have pure ecstasy in my hands before I touch the first pages and ruin it!

Oh heaven! Oh sweet cherubs and winged creatures above! Let it be over!

But let me pause; the fluttering heart within me stalling.

It is alright. Let it go. That feeling inside, that triumph of reaching that climax when you know- you know- everything will be alright.

Draw from it. Draw deep from it; feel it writhing in your soul. Feel it spread out from fingertip to fingertip.

It is over. Yes.

It is gone. No.

It will forever live alive inside. And the trumoil, the triumph, the heartbreak, the love, the passion, the hate- tears- joy- strength- weakness- black- white- tearing- ripping- soul expanding- earth splitting- smoky- golden black topaz brown and and and

It is finished. You have finished. I have finished.

And when my breathing slows, and I realize that it is the end.

And that I am happy- for them- for me.

And that I am proud- for so many reasons...

I find comfort that I will never forget; and that they will never leave me.

It is the end. Happily Ever After. Thank goodness.