12/10/08

I've eaten too much. Again.

My thoughts go round in circles. And I long for nonthoughts. And freedom.
And strength. To face each day, even when I don't... can't understand.
Even when it hurts.

I wish I could better myself.

(But I don't know how.)

I have more than one thought today.

How startling /

For Her

If I said I didn't want you here
Would you read between the lines
And come back anyway?
If I ran away from you
Would you chase me into forever?
Or are you willing to forget…

I will only cause you pain.

But I need you (more than ever).
Whoever you are.

The fears scare me.
The not knowing whether I will be okay.

and I can't leave my life to fate
(if only I wasn't such a bad decision maker)