My Dad

Lost in my thoughts
With you on my mind
Seeing you there
All out of time.

Five snaps, all that you had
Now your gone, no more Dad.
December 25th, Mom walked in, the bad news
How I wish it wasn't true.

My Dad, this isn't true, it can't be real
Your pain has stopped, now it's my turn to feel.
Hurt, anger, I can't get it straight
Your birthday came eight months too late.

I had my time in your room that day
Holding your hand, but no words to say
Trying to believe what had happened was true
Not wanting to die, just wanting you

Still I try to understand
Why this happened to you, Dad.
How do I get through my own inner pain
Thinking of you, am I going insane?

I just can't get you out of my mind
Is this supposed to get easier with time?
I love you, I miss you, I wish you were here
Standing at your grave was my biggest fear

Out in the cold looking down
How could my Daddy be in the ground?
How can it be, why is this true?
Oh God, oh Dad, I just miss you.