Letter 1:

October 1, 2008

Sarah Writing

I told you just how much I love you. You may of already known that I love you, but you didn't know how much I truly did love you. So, I decided to tell you just how much. You may not be able to see it, but I truly want you to be mine and no one else's. You may not know it, but I want to be yours, and yours alone. I just want you to know that as long as you truly love someone, age doesn't matter. You may know that, but I want to PROVE it to you. If you would let me I would SHOW you that age doesn't matter as long as you love someone.

“Sarah.” You say my name like its a delicate star up in the heavens. I always appreciate how you say my name. Always. No matter how many times I try I can never say your name with as much delicacy as you say my name with. Never. I've always wanted to, but never could.

“I love you.” You whisper that to me in my ear every night before you kiss me goodnight. You don't care who is around. You give me the best hugs. I never could give as good of hug as you gave me, but I still hugged you.

“Never let me go.” You say that to me every time I hug you. I never understood why considering my hugs were never as good. My hugs were like a father giving a hug to his daughter with not much feeling. My hugs were always like someone hugging a dog. My hugs never held as much love and compassion as yours did.

“Your eyes are as beautiful as Sapphires.” No matter how many times I told you that your eyes were a lot better than mine you would whisper that to me, and then kiss me with the most wonderful kiss you could muster. I would melt every time. Every time I would suppress a whimper as you pulled away. I would always smile at you, and finally give in. If we ever disagreed you would always say something, kiss me with that kiss, and make me feel weak in the knees, which would always cause me to give in. You knew my weakness, but you never took advantage of it. Only on disagreements would you use it against me. Oh, how I've wished I could kiss as wonderfully as you.

“I have always dreamed of taking you for a walk on a moon lit path thats under the stars.” I told you so many times that you are romantic, and every time you prove it to me by saying this quote to me. I never knew if you made it up from your own imagination, or if you got it from a love poem. Which ever one I true I would blush a deep red, and smile at you. I'll wait forever for that walk. I don't care what happens. I will wait forever for that walk.

“I want to kiss you in the rain.” You would tell me that after every date, and I mean EVERY date. I would only nod, but whenever you said that I wanted to scream and shout for joy. Reason being is because I felt the same way. I wanted to do the same thing. I always thought a kiss in the rain was the most romantic thing, and I would always dream about it. Even in class I would day dream about kissing you in the rain, though you would never know it because of my grades.

“I want to watch you as you sleep.” Before saying bye to me over the phone you would always say that. You couldn't see, but my face would be a deep red after you said it. I would agree though. Truthfully, I've always wanted to watch you sleep. I would even imagine you sleeping when I wouldn't be able to get to sleep at night.

“Never change who you are.” When I would be depressed you would always whisper that into my ear. I would cry into your shoulder, and nod my head saying that I won't. No matter how depressed or mad I was that one quote would always make me feel better. If I told you someone called me ugly you would only smile, and kiss me. You were saying “No matter what anyone says to you, baby your beautiful.”

With those quotes you always made me feel like an Angel. Baby I never want to let you go. I never want to see you cry. I never want to break your heart. Your the mot wonderful thing that ha ever happened to me. I know that you would agree with me. I know that you would never break my heart, only because I would never break yours.

If there was a way to make myself appear beside you every time you were sick I would. If I could mend your heart whenever you think about your mom and dads divorce I would. If I could take back every mean thing I've ever said to you I would. Baby, if I could heal your mind, soul, and heart of every negative thought, and thing that you have done, or someone else has to you I would. If I could get money every I told you I loved you, baby I would be a million, no billionaire by now.

With every word written I begin to love you even more than I did. With every beat of my heart I think of you. With every talk over the phone I want to see you. With every sleepless night-imagining you sleeping-I want to kiss those wonderfully soft lips of yours.

I can feel your arms wrapped secularly around me as I continue to write this letter. Feeling your warm breath against my neck as you sleep helps me write. Being able to picture you sleeping on my shoulder as I lean against you writing helps me feel your warm breath on my neck.

When I sleep I dream of you. I dream of our very first kiss in the rain. I dream of that walk under the stars on the moonlit path. I dream of the day we can share a bed. I dream of the future. I hope that one day we'll be married. That we will have kids. That we'll be together until the day we die.

I really do love you baby. I say again that your the best thing that ever happened to me. Your the other half of my heart. You are the mender of my broken heart. You are the one missing from my life. You are my SOULMATE. Your the one I want to spend the rest of my life with.

Again I say I want to be yours, and yours only. Again I say I want to SHOW you that age doesn't matter when you truly love someone. Baby I am truly, madly, and deeply in love with you.

Your baby,

Sarah