Why?

I’m not gonna hurt.
I refuse to cry.
I’m not gonna feel angry
And I will not ask why

If you’re happy with her,
I can understand.
I mean, it’s not like
You were ever my man.

You were my close friend,
Nothing more, no less
But I can’t help but be jealous,
This I confess.

I know I shouldn’t be like that
Because you never knew
But would things be different
If I said I liked you?

I’m going to be strong, though.
Not for your sake, but for mine.
I’m going to wear a smile
And tell everyone I’m fine.

No one knew I liked you.
I kept it locked away.
Now I wonder what would happen
If I took the time to say

‘Would you go out with me?’
What’s the worst you’d say?
I knew I was afraid
That you would go away.

So, now I am hurting
From the things I never said
And my teardrops are falling
As thoughts run though my head.

I’m angry at myself,
But I will never blame you
And I’m asking myself ‘Why?
Why couldn’t I tell the truth?’