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Fuck.It hurts

Shit. It hurts

Damn it! Why does it hurt?

I made up my mind

I won't back down!

I'll sit in my room and think

I'll stare at the walls and cry

The last tears to ever leave these eyes

It's useless to keep going

Useless to try and fit in

To keep that smile on my face

You'd be surprised to know how many masks I've worn

But slowly... each has fallen

My friends-- They don't understand

Words won't fix me

My parents-- they don't get it

Counseling only makes it worse

I'm a loser

An outsider looking into my own life

A nobody

Another statistic

The laughs became forced

The smiles painful

It was so hard

And you know I'm a quitter

With great grades

Amazing friends

It's not you-- it's me

I'm broken

Shattered

The walls, they leer

They spin and cackle

And I scream

Damn it all

All those years weren't worth living

I shouldn't have been born

Someone better should have been

Not such a failure

This is my release

My last resort

The only thing I can do to fix it

Me

This is not a suicide note

This

Is

A

Ticket

To

Freedom

For all of us.

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