I hate this feeling-

Like I’m numb

but hypersensitive.

Like I’ve got somewhere to be

but no place to go.

Like I did something wrong

but I’ve got a clean record.

Like I need to cut

but I don’t want to.

I hate this feeling-

Like no one cares

when they say they love me.

Like they all wish I’d die

when I speak.

I hate this feeling-

Like I exist

when I’m fading.

I love this feeling.