In a moment of insanity(or was it clarity

In a moment of insanity(or was it clarity?)

I told her I didn’t love her any more(was it ever really love?)

It hurt her(but much less than the fact that I had just been pretending...)

Now...

I'm alone, my best friend wont even talk to me(She cant handle it?)

Every trick in my book,(not very many pages)

Couldn't make her take me back.

I'm not worth the effort it would take(for another chance)

I love her, loved her(I'm afraid I will never stop)

I miss her, she was what kept me going(now there is no light to hide my horrid thoughts in shadow)

I let her define herself by who we were(How did she shake me off so easily?)

Now I'm the one trapped by regret(I would sell my soul for a kiss)

How much time before I can pass her on the street,

Without dying inside(If only she would have me back!)

I think I was afraid of her love(I hadn't earned it...)

What have I done?