your voice is my addiction

the only real guilty pleasure i have

the vice i never want to lose

when i feel like this, i take a hit.

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by midnight i will fly

no matter how i have to do it

it's the least i can do for you.

for those eyes.

lashes splayed out like my fingers on this keyboard.

trying to work out the lyrics to a song i'll never write.

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if everyday of my pain brought you just a second of joy,

i'd cry forever.

i'd live my life just on the edge of drowning.

i'm just too shallow to end it.

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but tonight things change.

i'll drop off the face of this earth.

or at least off the edge of my personal hell.

oxygen is too big of a reminder.

so i hold my breathe instead of holding you.

waiting until those church bells chime.

just another wreck waiting in line.

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i know you don't understand, but that's okay.

my goodbye will make you free.

my end will let you begin.

the flight has been delayed, but maybe i don't want it to land.

it can fly forever

just as i hope to do soon.