Author: maximusrexmundi PM
see ANRated: Fiction K+ - English - Angst/Friendship - Words: 336 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 1 - Published: 10-30-08 - id: 2590377
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It's been months since the sun has shone
And I have felt its joy above
The smile I wear every day
Is like a mask to hide my pain
The months roll by consistently
But the pain just grows and grows
To deny that you were everything
Is fooling and untrue
The world keeps going on and on
As I stand idly by
But not all things pass with time
Emotion rarely dies
I find no peace in life now
For all things speak of you
The sun the sky the grass the tree
All hold joyous memories
The time has come for the verdict
And I know not what may come
My vision blurs at the very thought
That you may truly be gone
For even as I feel the hurt
That you have put me through
I know in some small way that I
Will never deny that it was worth it all.
AN: Yeah I know, it seems scrambled, and oddly put together, but that's because it was haha. Pretty much two line phrases that have come to me over the last couple months. One would think that after five months this huge pit in my stomach would be filled over, and that the raging torrent within me would die away, but alas, no.
To You: Should you be reading this someday as I pray you don't and hope you do, know this: I am sorry that my best was not good enough. I am sorry I expected it to be. I am sorry that I expected you to love me back, and I am sorry I had unrealistic hopes for the future. But I am not sorry for my saying that the happiest times in my life were with you, even as I know I will never be able to say that in the future.
AN on the To You: sorry, but I don't feel like trying to disguise that as a poem today, maybe some other time.