sometimes

sometimes i just get tired of it all

the fake smiles

the fake laughter

the fake companionship

of pretending that i actually want to be there

sometimes i just get tired of it all

i want to yell that no, i'm not okay

i want to shout that it hurts inside

i want to scream that i need help like every other pathetic nut-case out there...

every pathetic life form that can't handle their own damn issues

i hate what i've become

as much of a liar as Sinon

as much of a deceiver as Autolycus

as much of an actor as those i profess to hate

and hate them i do

they act because they're shallow

i act because i have so much depth that it threatens to consume me

but in the end, i'm still as fake as they are

regardless of the reasons

sometimes i just get tired of it all