Something that happened a couple of days ago...I can't believe that it really is happening again...

Tyler's Deployment

I was just laying in that bed, just trying to think about the best ways to get better. The best way that I could get to feeling my best. I was with the people who loved me, and Mitchell and Jay were just sitting with me, trying to keep my spirits up. My cousin, Tyler, was in the background talking to Katie and Alan. He was whispering something and I just couldn't make it out. Then he said the dreaded words that I did hear, the ones that made a crash on my world.

"I deploy in May." That simple sentence, those simple words made my world begin to break down again. He couldn't go! It just wasn't possible! I refused to believe that it was him going. Because it just seemed like he would never be able to leave me to go out there. But he was a soldier, and the damn war that's already taken out my uncle and dad was going to take out my cousin too. But it just wasn't right. I already had to suffer my dad being deployed in Iraq. Now, my eighteen year old cousin was going out to Afghanistan.

I just sat there in shock, praying that I had heard it wrong. My eyes swelled up in tears, but I wouldn't let them fall. His eyes hit mine and he knew that I had heard him. He rushed to my side to hold me. I broke down at that point. How could the military take him away from me? I needed him here with me. Out of anyone he was the one I needed the most and he was the one who was leaving. He held me for a few moments. I just kept crying.

I don't know how I am going to make it through this deployment...I can't even seem to make it through my dad's.