A/N Hi, i have been writing this for ages and i thought i would put it up. i want to thank ~Alison for editing it for me. You are the best Ali!!!

Merry christmas. i do have a christmas special but that wont be up til next week any way i hope you enjoy it. i will put some pictures up of what the packs look like or what the ones who are mentioned look like in their wolf form. It is hard finding them so it might take a little while. i have Luthers and Echos so if you want to see them let me know and i will get back to you asap ok? i will also look for Luther and Echos human form as well but that might fair harder then the wolves so just bare with me ok.

thank you for reading and please review it will be great as a xmas present

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I stood outside the cave looking inside. My nose told me everyone was there. I took a deep breath in and started walking in. I wasn’t wearing much. I wore a pair of shorts that seemed too small for me, and a sports top that supported my breasts. I got in the centre of the cave and there I found my family curled up, resting from a heavy night of hunting.

It had been over 2 years since I had been here but everything still looked the same. Zach, the alpha male, slept at the top of the cave. He looked peaceful and happy. Next to him slept my sister, Melody. I smiled and understood it was about time as well. Melody, after me, was the next in line for taking Zach’s litter. As I skipped a few weeks before, Melody took my turn and they are still together it seems.

I looked at the rest of the pack. Luther, Mason, and Jacob, the fighters of the pack, were closest to the front of the bundled wolves. Behind them were the hunters Madison and Jean. I would have also been there but, as I said, I skipped two weeks. I would have thought that maybe they would get one of the fighters to hunt as well but I didn’t know.

Behind them was little Alex and baby Edna. These were the youngest that I knew, maybe my sister was pregnant with kids. I saw mama was lying with them. Mama was the alpha female, or so we thought. She was in charge of us and she loved us as if she were our mother. She is also the eldest one in the pack. I smiled and walked forward some more.

Luther’s ears twitched and I smiled. I took another step but knocked a stone. It hit Luther on the nose and I cursed under my breath. He lifted his head and shook it. He spotted me and growled. I growled back but he jumped me knocking me to the ground. The 125lb wolf, which had landed on top me, knocked the wind out of me. I gasped for air.

Luther growled again and sniffed me. I growled back and stared at him. He must recognise me, I thought. He sniffed me again and then nuzzled my neck. I giggled and ruffled his fur.

“Heya Luther. I missed you, too” He didn’t move from on top of me, in fact he changed into his human form. He smiled down at me when he had finished. I looked down and I felt slightly relieved to see he was wearing trousers when he had changed.

“How is my baby doing?” he asked. I slapped him.

“I am not your baby you ass.” He moved a strand of blonde hair from my face.

“No, but you will be one day” I rolled my eyes.

“In your wildest dreams, Luther. Will you get off me? You're heavy.” He smiled and kissed me quickly and then he jumped up. I pushed myself to my feet and looked over at the pack.

“How is every one?” I asked. He eyed me carefully and pulled me into a hug.

“Everyone has missed you, babe. Melody wept for weeks after you left. The hunters were lost. Zach was raged. Mama was distraught. How could you have done that?” He asked. I didn’t say anything. “Echo, we needed you with us. We still do. We are barely surviving on food. Other packs have moved in and are taking our food. We need you to ward them off - you weren’t just our hunter. You were our best fighter and you talked to other pack leaders about stuff like this.” I hung my head.

“I know. Look, I am sorry but I have had to do some things for the last two years”

“Well as long as you are here to stay there is no problem.” I looked over the pack again. Maybe they had been bigger. Maybe there had been loss of cubs. I sighed and nodded.

“I will stay for a while but not long. I am needed elsewhere” Luther sighed and laid down on the floor. He patted the floor next to him and I rolled my eyes. I lay next to him slowly changing in to my wolf form. Luther watched me and, when I finished, he whistled and stroked my fur.

“Oh babe, you get sexier every time I see you change” I rolled my eyes. I growled and he shut up. He changed himself and led next to me. He lay his head on me and I smiled inside. It felt like old times again.

The next morning I bolted awake. Luther was gone and when I looked around, I realised that so was most of the pack. I sniffed them out and I got to my feet. I was going to follow the trail but just as I trotted to the front of the cave, three wolves stopped me. I glared at them and growled in warning for them to move. They stood their ground. I rolled my eyes and trotted around. Whilst in the cave, we normally stayed in our wolf form and only in a discussion did we ever change into our human form. I changed quickly and waited for Mama, Edna, and Alex to change.

Mama was first and she gave me the hardest stare you could possibly think. I cringed and coward. You never got on Mama’s bad side.

“Echo, where have you been?” I looked at the floor.

“Doing things, Mama” I told her.

“You skipped a week before Zach chose. Are you insane?” I didn’t answer. “Christ Echo I know you are young and adventurous but going out alone is dangerous. You should know that most of all. Why did you do it?”

“I had something to do,” I said quietly. She growled at me “Mama, I am sorry. Something needed doing. Something that was tied to me” Mama rolled her eyes.

”Echo, you could have told us instead of bolting. We could have helped you out”

“No mama! This was something I had to do alone.” She eyed me carefully.

“Mum, it is fine I will speak with her” I looked up and there stood with Luther, Mason, Jacob, Jean, Madison, and Melody was Zach. I smiled but he stared at me coldly. I winced away and I felt like I had betrayed everyone here. Zach may be the alpha male but he was also the son of Mama when she was married to the old alpha. Jacob looked at me coldly and I couldn't look at him. Jacob was my father.

“Papa, I missed you,” I whispered. He did not answer me. In fact, he turned and walked to a clearing that belonged to us. I knew he was disappointed in me. My mother was dead and she was from another pack. Zach’s had destroyed her just after I had been born. Papa saved me and begged Zach to let me stay. Zach said as long as I was one for the chosen when my time came. Papa agreed. Melody was the one Zach had spared. Papa knew it but never took care of her.

To him she was not his, even though we knew we were sisters.

Luther and I had been born around the same time but I only half belong to this pack. Technically, Luther doesn’t belong here. He used to be a lone wolf but then he met Zach...and me, so he stayed. My family and the pack was complicated and taking the time to explain it now was not good.

He looked at me and smiled. He cared for me too much and he didn’t want me to leave again. He could never stay angry with me for long and I did not know why. Zach pointed at me and told me to follow him. I followed him to a cavern at the back of the cave. Normally used as an isolation room for naughty cubs or wolves but Zach sometimes used it for talking with people.

“You, young lady, are in big trouble” I rolled my eyes.

“I dont know why. I only half belong here. Look at me Zach; I am the only white wolf here. I am an outcast. If you ask me I belong better with my mother’s pack” he winced.

“Echo please. My brother means a lot to me and he has been in pain. I am angry with you but I understand where you are coming from. I just thought that you would never be so wild.”

“Well maybe you thought wrong Zach. I am not a little girl I am your best pack member and whether you like it or not I have two packs and you know it. My mother was the alpha in that pack and you destroyed her. I belong to that pack. I am meant to lead that pack and you know it” he sighed “I dont even belong here and you have forbidden me to go anywhere but our lands. Come on Zach you have done things in your 21 years of being alpha male that I will never forget. You killed my mother and destroyed all but one of my brothers and sisters. I hate you” he looked sad but it didn’t help.

“Look, I regret doing that I really do but-”

“No 'but' Zach. This is one of the reasons for me leaving. You try to control me when you know that I am not yours to control. If I was born into this pack as your child then maybe but no, I have another pack who knows who I am. I have been with them for the last 2 years. Doing what I was born to do” Zach sighed.

“Do you have cubs?” he asked. I looked at my feet. “Oh God, you did” I nodded.

“I had a miscarriage because we were attacked. I happened to be cornered and my pack was fighting their battles. My mate, he jumped in to save me, but they killed him. One of the other wolves caught me off guard and he attacked me. I lost the cubs and I nearly died myself.” He looked at me, took his hair, and pulled it.

“God Echo, I am so sorry” I shook my head.

“It is cool. Just please, I belong to another pack as well.” He nodded.

“Are your pack nearby?”

“They are about half a day run from here south” he nodded and took my face in his hands

“Echo. You are the best niece I could ask for. Please be careful looking after them. If you need any help then please ask” I looked at the floor.

“That is why I am here” he looked suddenly worried.

“My pack and I are moving territory. One of my older females is pregnant. We need to let her rest somewhere in a cave. She is close to giving birth. The only cave I knew well is here. I need your permission, please. They are important to me. I need them all to be safe and protected if needed” he looked at my face.

“I dont know. The pack wouldn’t like it.”

“Please, don't do this for the pack. Do it for me. Do it for my mother” he looked at my pleading face and he finally nodded.

“She may stay until the cubs are born and then until they are old enough to survive. Then you will have to leave but please stay close. And tell me where you are just in case we both need each other.” I smiled and hugged him.

“Thank you Zach. Oh and treat my sister right, please. She is only 18. In the real world this is illegal” he nodded.

“She is my gem, Echo. No harm will come to her.” I nodded.

“Thank you” he smiled and I pulled away. I rushed out and kissed everyone on the cheek. I came to Luther and he looked down at me, smiling.

“Can you help me?” I asked him. He frowned at me.

“What for?”

“There are three other packs on the way here. I need to get a pregnant wolf here safely and you are good so... please...” he smiled and pulled me into a hug.

“Anything for you, babe” I smiled.

“Thank you” We walked out the cave and we ran down the path to the floor. At the bottom, I changed in mid jump and so did Luther.

“How far” I heard his voice in my head.

“Half day south at a run” I said back to him. He nodded and howled. I smiled to myself and copied. I looked behind me and I found half the pack following us. They joined in with the run and I felt great again. I felt like I was on a hunt again. We got about five miles away and the pack turned back. The hunters stayed close for surveillance and I was glad. I looked at Luther and carried on running.

We ran for ages playing around the track. I stopped for a drink by a river while Luther watched me. I sat up and looked at him. I knew he was smiling and I smiled back. He walked up to me and nuzzled my neck. This had two meanings. One was 'I love you' and two was 'please play with me'.

I pulled away and started running again. He growled at me and chased me. He pulled me to the ground and trapped me under him again. I yelped as I went down but I couldn’t help it. Luther was heavy and I was just a female trying to save her pack. I changed quickly into a human and so did Luther. I twisted to look at him and his features were perfect for a wolf. His eyes were piercing green and his hair was very dark brown. It was shaggy like his fur coat but his muscles were full and powerful. I looked at him and he smiled down at me.

“What do you want, Luther?” I asked.

“A piece of you” he told me. I rolled my eyes

“Luther I am the alpha here. I say what I want and not the other way round” his eyes changed.

“You are an alpha?” he asked me. I nodded

“Yeah that is where I have been for the last two years. I became the alpha of my mother’s pack”

“So you have left our pack?” I smiled

“Luther, I will always be part of the pack but my pack is more important. I will always be close by just yell and I will come. I wanted to be near you so we could help each other. Besides I could use Mamas help and advice and Zach could show me a thing or two on how to take a care of a pack my size” he looked me over and suddenly he kissed me. It was only short but still.

“Can I come with you?” I frowned.

“Luther, Zach needs you. The pack isn’t getting any larger.”

“Your sister is pregnant with Zach’s cubs. They plan to have more next year. They want to enlarge the pack. Please, I need to be near you. I love you” I blinked and looked at him. I sighed harshly and pushed him off me. I started running this time. When I found a place to jump from I did and changed in mid air. I continued running in my wolf form when I hit the ground. I thought about how if I mated with a grey wolf how my pack will have tainted blood. We were, after all, the only white wolf pack alive.

I remembered how I looked before I moved. I had died my hair to black to try fit in better with my pack but it didn’t work. I would always be a white wolf. I now had white blonde hair, which is my original colour. I have piercing blue eyes that would seem unnatural. My skin is pale but I am thin and tall. I have good muscle on me and I am the perfect athlete.

I kept running and, when I saw the familiar trees, I slowed. I howled and heard another howl about half a mile away. My ears pricked and I followed the sound. Soon, I smelt my packs scent and I easily found a cave with them in it.

They all looked at me and when they saw Luther, the oldest male, Asa, growled and stood ready to pounce. I looked at him with a hard stare and growled softly back at him. He shrunk back. I changed back in a human and so did Luther. The rest of my pack followed. The only one left was Hattie. I looked at her. She seemed happy for now.

“Who is he?” Asa asked. I turned my gaze to him.

“He is a friend.”

“He isn’t a pure” I rolled my eyes.

“Are you stupid Asa? He is from my father’s pack. A lone wolf. He is my friend and if you think he can’t help protect us then you are sorely wrong. He is better than any of the fighters here.” I growled. I was angry. Asa may be the eldest but he wasn’t in charge. He knew that but he always tried to trump me. Asa growled and huffed off. I looked at the rest of the pack. “Anyone else challenge my judgment?” I asked. Every one shook their head.

“Good. We will move tomorrow. Someone tell Hattie. Me, Luther and Gerrie will go hunting.” Every one nodded and they dispersed around. Gerrie came up to me and hugged me. She was my youngest member but she was fast and strong.

“Cousin, how was your journey?” I smiled at her.

“It was not very eventful. The stay there and the journey back was more eventful than getting there I guess.” She smiled.

“When do we leave?”

“In an hour. Luther and I need to rest” She nodded and walked to the back with the rest of the pack. I turned and walked out. I found a high ledge and sat there looking out long the horizon.

“Echo? Are you all right?” I looked at Luther. I nodded. “Are you sure?” I nodded again.

“I just don’t like this time of year anymore” I told him quietly.

“Why?” I glared at him.

“Oh, soft spot sorry. “ I sighed and looked down.

“No, it is alright. It is not your fault” He took my hand when he sat next to me.

“Echo, tell me. What is wrong?” I sighed.

“About a year ago, my pack was attacked. I was pregnant. My mate, Leo, tried to protect me when two wolves cornered me. They killed him and attacked me. I lost my cubs and... And having cubs again might not be an option” he looked at me and pulled me into a hug.

“I am sorry for your loss. Is that the reason for your other pack member being pregnant?” I nodded.

“Yes, I ordered in a nice way, just to keep the line going, for Hattie to get pregnant. She was happy to. Cage, the one who was going to be this year’s father, understood and was happy as well. He had no choice really. Cage told me a few days before that he loves Hattie but he felt like he was betraying the pack. I told him it was fine.”

“Have you tried for kids again?” he asked

“No, I am too scared to.” He sighed and took my chin in his hands.

“Echo, there is scared and then there is scared. You are not scared. You are the strongest female wolf I know at the age of 18. I know a few. Look, trust me that you will be able to have kids again. I promise you this” I sighed and tore my head away.

“I dont see how. It isn’t like you can see into the future or-” he kissed me. It was light but it was passionate. He pulled away and smiled at me.

“I promise you,” he whispered and he got up and walked away. I sighed and lay on my back. I took my hair and pulled to let out my frustration. I looked at the stars and thought about what Luther had said on the way here. I love you. I closed my eyes. He loved me and was willing to have the whole pack hate him to be with me.

I didn’t know how I felt about him. He was a good friend I knew that. I liked him a lot but having a relationship with him seemed weird. I didn’t know if it would be right.

I got to my feet and walked back down to the cave. Luther and Gerrie were waiting for me at the entrance. I hugged everyone good-bye and we left. We changed early and we used our nose to find the food.

Three hours later, I rested next to Hattie and watched the rest of the pack. The younger ones were playing and there was Luther at the entrance watching out. I had smelt another pack very nearby now half an hour ago and it had put both of us on edge. We didn’t tell the others. I knew it would distress Hattie if she knew.

I looked cautiously around. Everyone was happy. Asa was still in a bad mood and watched Luther carefully. Every now and then, I sent him a growl or two just to keep him under control.

Luther came up to me and sat next to me. “Everything is fine. The pack has moved away. They have smelt two packs scent around here they dont want to mess.” I smiled and nodded in gratitude.

“Thank you,” I said.

“No problem” he smiled at me and I couldn't help but smile back. “Um...can we talk?” he asked.

“What about?” he looked at the pack and then at me.

“About what I said” my frown deepened.

“Not now, Luther.” He looked at me and glared.

“Yes, now. I meant what I said and I know you are scared. I don't know about what, though. Maybe it is the fact you might lose the cubs again or maybe it is that fact I am not your original mate. I don't know but I want to figure this out Echo. I want to be with you,” he said. I sighed.

“Yes, I am scared about losing the cubs and part of it is that I loved my mate and now he is gone but there is something else. Something you wouldn’t understand” he sighed and took my hand.

“Then tell me. Help me understand. If we were at home with Zach and you didn’t have this pack on top of you then you would be happy to do anything.” I sighed.

“It isn’t as simple as that,” I told him. He sighed and looked at me sadly. I knew he wanted to understand but I didn’t know how to explain it.

“Then make it simple. Echo, I only want to help and be there with you.” I sighed

“Well you can’t. You are not what I am. Here I am with my own breed. You are a lone wolf, Luther, and always will be. We are two different kinds of wolf and nothing is going to change that” he looked me over and took my hair in his hands.

“Does it matter if we are a different breed?” I glared at him.

“Yes, it does. I lead the only white wolf pack left alive. If I were having anything to do with you then I would taint this whole pack. I would taint my heritage and I would taint what we have tried to achieve for thousands of years.” He looked me over and got up. He looked down at me with a hard stare.

“This pack isn’t going to last forever, Echo. One day, it will be extinct. Your mother has already tainted this pack. You are tainted. You are half-grey wolf whether you like it or not. You may be white on the outside but inside you are grey. Look around you. These wolves, they are built differently. They are stockier to survive the cold areas in which they inhabit. You are slender like grey wolves. We live down south where it is warm. White wolves don't belong here. They don't belong here but you do” everyone looked up at our fight. I can’t believe he just said that.

“Get out and don't come back.” He looked at me and smiled.

“Fine. Tell Zach I said good-bye” my eyes flicked up towards him.

“What do you mean?” I have a multi-personality disorder. One minute I can be angry and then I forget it and go all-happy, sad, or even confused. It is a trait that you find in most breeds of wolves.

“I am leaving. You said it yourself I am a lone wolf but heed what I said. You may look white but on the inside you are a grey wolf.” He walked off and down to the ground. I got to my feet but Asa stopped me.

“What do you want?” I asked.

“I told you he isn’t pure. You didn’t trust me. Greys are not supposed to be trusted.” I rolled my eyes.

“Asa, I maybe young but I know who I can trust. Luther wants me to be his mate. I can’t help it if we fire up at each other. Look after Hattie. We will be moving in an hour. Head south for half a day. Howl and when you hear grey wolves reply talk to them and explain who you are. They will lead you to Zach and Mama. Papa will be there as well. They will look after you. Please dont judge them. Zach is being kind enough to put Hattie up until the cubs are old enough. Get used to living with them.” He looked at me and nodded.

“Fine, you should know I trust you. I trusted your mother loads, as you are her daughter I will trust your judgement. What are you planning on doing about Luther?” I sighed.

“What do you think I should do? He wants to be my mate and he wants to have cubs with me but I can’t. He loves me but I don't know” Asa sighed and took my shoulders in his hands.

“Follow your heart. Your mother did but she lost half her cubs from your pack leader. I think if you were going to mate with Luther at least let the rest of the pack keep the line going. Maybe after a while your cubs will mate with the white cubs and we will adapt for being here but still have a white coat. It might work, but of course over time.” My face brightened and I hugged Asa.

“Thank you” I smiled at him. “That helped a lot” he nodded and I rushed out the cave. I followed Luther’s scent and I howled out for him. He didn’t answer. Please Luther, I pleaded to myself, answer me. I howled again and I heard something. I followed the sound and I soon came to a clearing. There laid Luther, out of breath. I walked up to him and nuzzled his neck. He growled at me and I sat back. I hung my head.

I am sorry, I said in my head. He looked at me. He transformed back and stared at me.

“Sorry” he said to me. I nodded. “How can you be? You blaintently told me you hated me” I looked at him. I took in a deep breath and rushed at him. I pushed him to floor and nuzzled his neck again. This time I pleaded for forgiveness. I changed myself and I now sat straddling him.

“I really am sorry. I was afraid of me betraying my pack if I mated with a grey wolf. Just like my mother. I was afraid that if I did I would get hurt like my mother. I dont know if I can have cubs any more but I am willing to try. Asa talked to me and told me to follow my heart. He said if I decide to become your mate, he will go along with it and that will certainly surprise the rest of the pack but they will follow as well. Asa said if I decide to mate with you, I have to let some of my pack breed as well. That means white wolves and grey wolves.

“He also said that if the cubs breed together then maybe in time us white wolf will become adapted to this area but we will still have our coat. I agree and I want to be with you. For some reason unknown I have fallen in love with you and if I had to choose a different mate over you I would die first”

Luther started at me as thought I was an insane person. I had just told him I was accepting him as my mate and that I loved him and he just stared at me.

“Speak to me, Luther” he still stared at me. He sighed.

“Honestly, Echo, I dont know what to say” I smiled. Typical Luther. I sighed and got off him.

“That isn’t much help, Luther,” I told him. He smiled at me and he sat up.

“Oh, come on, Echo. I think if the love of your life tells you one moment that she doesn’t want to have cubs with you and then the next she does and that she loves you, it is rather shocking.” I nodded understanding.

“I know and I am sorry for that but please. I can’t leave my pack and yet I can’t-” he kissed me. He didn’t even let me finished my sentence. Maybe he knew what I was going to say. He pulled away and placed a hand on my face.

“Thank you,” he whispered. I frowned

“What for?” I asked

“For accepting me of course. I love you,” he told me and I smiled at him.

“I love you, too,” I said back and then he was kissing me again. Who knew that two out cast wolves would become one? We stayed there kissing for ages or so it felt. It was light before we decided to move. First off, we ran back to the cave and I was happy to find that everyone had left then we left our selves.

On the way, back we stopped at least four times. Each time Luther kissed me. I must say, wolf relationships were very intimate. It was good in a way. It released all stress that powered us up for hunts or fights.

When we reached home. I smelt another pack. I stopped abruptly and looked around. I sniffed the air and didn’t recognise it. Luther stopped just ahead of me finally realising that something was wrong.

“What is up?” he asked me in his head.

“I smell another pack. Not the ones we know. Someone new is around” Luther nodded and we howled in unison. We started running at a fast pace and when we reached our cave we were happy.

Zach looked at me and rushed over. He nuzzled my neck and rubbed his head against mine. I did the same back and I think we were both grateful that I was safe. Asa came over and did the same. I looked for Hattie but I couldn’t see her. Zach looked at the isolation room. I nodded understanding.

“The run set off her contractions she broke waters not long before she got here.”

“How many pups?”

“4 so far. I think there is one left” I nodded. Good. I turned in my normal human form and I walked around helplessly. Luther came up to me and took me in his arms.

“Calm down babe. She is fine. I know she is” I nodded.

“I know I am just scared that is all.” He nodded. He kissed my forehead.

“I know. All will end fine. I told Zach about what you are doing and he is fine with it. He is happy that we are mates.” I nodded.

“Maybe it is right maybe it is wrong but who cares right?” he nodded and hugged me. I felt perfect. Together and happy with Luther. The only lone wolf who understood me.