"SORA"

Aoi soshite Hime Monogatari

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The sky is so blue.

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The sun seems shy hiding in the thick bed of clouds. Yes, I can breath thoroughly in this refreshing fresh air scattering anywhere, I needn’t to worry. The greenly grass I lay on is so soft I couldn’t help but feel its welcoming presence. I stare at the blue sky, the clouds are scattering above, and I feel nothing but so refreshing and… freedom. This kind of place is where I always want to spend my whole life, seeing the sky at daylight and stargazing at night is natural for me. But, this kind of scenery I always watch it all alone by myself. No. Actually, I want to be alone all the time. Or maybe I have come to accept it since no one is there to understand the feelings I always keep. I have this friend, my only friend ever since I was born and he is very dear to me yet he is so far away from me. But then, he wouldn't understand me as well and I knew it that's why I never wanted him to be with me during at a time like this. Because whether I'm happy or not, he would not understand the feelings I have inside. For an eleven years old child like me, life seems so wonderful yet cruel.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. So then I hug my blue bunny, tightly.

Father Jesus, please let me stay here just for another 3o minutes.

“Hime!”

A very familiar voice called suddenly, so sudden it stops me from daydreaming. A very, very cold voice, and despite the young age a manly voice is what he utters.

I look right and as I saw him not a few distances, I sit straightly facing him.

“Your mother has called you.” He said.

Then as he saw my gloomy expression he added, “Now, Hime.”

Hime. What a name, some of my classmates laugh about it, if only they’ll know what it really means then they would not tease me anymore.

“I understand, thank you Aoi.” I answered and give him a chilly smile.

“Why are you thanking me?” he asked while helping me to stand.

“It’s because, Aoi cares for me. Aren’t you Aoi?” I said. He blushed I know, as it is I expected from my best friend, or rather my hired personal companion.

“You’re daydreaming. Let’s go now, your mother seems angry.”

I nodded, and then I followed him holding my blue bunny as if I’m scared to be separated from my favorite stuff toy.

As we entered the door that seems so huge for our small figures, I saw my mother with her frowned brows.

“I told you not to go out by yourself especially without me knowing it! Where have you been?” my 34 year old mother said in a higher voice.

“I was just at the backyard mother. I never went afar.” I explained, my voice seems so low. Maybe she hardly hears me.

“Backyard? Behind the compound or wherever it is, if you step outside the gate its still consider far from our sight. How many times should I remind you? You know what triggers your health, don’t make fun out of it.” She said. I know she cares for me, that’s why she has this strict manner but towards only me. But somehow and sometimes I feel like she doesn’t like me.

“I am very sorry mother.” I said bowing my head. I didn’t saw her pained expression on her face.

“We’ll visit your grandma later if you rested.” She just said then turned away.

“Aoi!” my mother called then she look at our direction.

“Leave her for now, follow me at the study room.” She said. Aoi nodded, then before I could closed my eyes Aoi runs towards her. Even Aoi never looks back at me.

They left again, without even saying goodbye. All of them, once they left they would never even bother to glance at me before they would go.

They will always leave me behind like this. Always.

I hugged tightly Kouki, my blue bunny bear. I went inside my room and quietly, lowly and sorrowfully, I cried. It’s always like this. I understand, yes, since I was born with this weak body. Since 4 years old I suffered a lot because of my asthma, it is no ordinary asthma. My mother said its hereditary, genetics, a sickness I inherited from my father’s side. We are four siblings in our family, I have two brothers and one sister. I am… the third child, the weakest among them. My father and mother would not want me to go to places which will be far from their sight, that’s what they always remind me. Just a little dust I inhaled or any smoke I breathe my asthma attacks me and it will lead me confining at the nearest hospital for almost half a month. My eldest brother said its okay if its just asthma, but because I have weak lungs my body couldn’t take the so much pain. I easily get sick, and as what my mother has told me the outside world seems too much dangerous for me. So, I was locked up in this family compound.

My older brother Michael is a fourth year high school student. My older sister Mitchell is a freshman in high school, they were always busy at studying. Never did they play with me. John, my younger brother is the only person whom I can play with. I’m in the 5th grade and is eleven years old, John is 4 years younger than me.

I have so many classmates in school but I never have friends nor a friend.

They said I’m not normal.

And they won’t want having such an abnormal friend. I don’t know what they meant saying I’m abnormal. I’m just so weak, is it really abnormal? I always thought.

However, even I want to have friends my mother won’t allow me to. She said I mustn’t befriend with lowly people such as my classmates. She doesn’t want me to have friends in public elementary school, but why they enrolled me there anyway? Ah, it seems I already know.

The school I am studying now is the nearest school in our house.

That’s it. That has to be it. They even hired a person whom his age not far from me just to become my personal companion everyday, and to be friends with me.

That hired friend is Aoi.

*Aoi - Aw-we

That's all for now...well actually this story is full of mysteries haha. I mean as you go on reading the chapters there are really lots of twist and somehow since its still ongoing, it will be very confusing to understand the real plot of this story. This is kinda sad story about Hime's life but, I swear this has to be a happy ending at the end.