Please don’t look at me

I am ashamed

Of the person you see

The person you named

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It isn’t right to lie to your child

How can I forgive you?

I remember when you smiled

And promised me my dreams would come through

.

You said I would grow up to be strong

There would never be any doubt

Well let me tell you, you were wrong

And I was the one who had to find out

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Blood taints my once innocent hands

And blood now taints my heart

You’re the one that still stands

While I am falling apart

.

Do you know I grew up

Wanting to make you proud

Now I drown in a spilled cup

And I can’t forget what you vowed

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It isn’t right to lie to your child

There is no honor in killing

I remember when you smiled

Back when I was still willing

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But I didn’t know how it would be

I was just a kid and you were my dad

I never questioned what you told me

And now I wish I had

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There is no difference between a warrior and killer

At least not in your sickened mind

Now I stand next to a broken pillar

Wondering why I was so blind

.

The sealing comes crashing down on me

Because there is nothing to hold it up anymore

And now all I want to be

Is who I was before