if i was smarter,
i would have told you from day one,
that i love you.

if i was smarter,
i wouldn't let you leave so quickly
i wouldn't let you pull away
or see you unhappy
i wouldn't waste so much time on small talk
and i wouldn't fidget when i get nervous.

i wish i wouldn't get so nervous.
i wish i didn't pull away.
and i wish i could pull out the words to say
that i loved you, i wish i had told you that from the first day.