s t a r d u s t

and so i stare at the computer screen

and i can't seem to think of anything else but

the nightmares that keep crawling inside my skull

like spiders across my arms.

there are flowers everywhere

and dolls stained with heavy make-up.

heads twisted in a grotesque way and staring down at me

like it’s my fault they’re all dead -

silently screaming “you’re next, you’re next”

and so i run from the abandoned cabin

and watch it burn from a distance

crying and laughing and scared

and the blood is everywhere,

tainting my skin,

the deception blinding my eyes

like obnoxious sunshine

and so i sing a lullaby to drive myself to sleep

not knowing that it’s driving me mad

instead.

i stare up at the stars

(twinkling and skillfully veiling their secrets)

so i blew them kisses

and whispered a wish in the wind

and giggled

and snuggled in the grass

then there was this big hole

and i was falling, falling,

floating in an endless void

feeling forsaken and forgotten . . .

the stardust in my eyes slowly fading away