Hey. This one may not be my best but it's the only thing I've really been able to write these past couple months. I've got random depression. My whole mantra on life has been to just live in the moment and have fun, and only recently I've noticed how much has passed me by, and it's weighing down pretty heavy. I've been missing school, losing sleep and feeling pretty shitty overall. Hopefully I'll be getting counselling, but at the same time I'm not sure if that'll help much. Anyways, this song is about a lot of things, as most of them are. It's about relationships for me, and how they never work the way I wish they would. I feel like I'm just not interesting enough, or good looking enough, or whatever, and this song conveys a lot of my insecurities. The first four stanzas maintain the same rhyme scheme and sound throughout, with a steady musical score, and the vocals maintaining the same sound as well, except in the fourth, where it rises to give way to a guitar solo, and then the rest of the lyrics are a fadeout. A really long fadeout, but a fitting one. The vocals will start strong, and then taper down to a whisper by the end, if that'll help the imagination process any. Enjoy!

Smile Me Away

So don't you fall for me!
Save yourself from me!
Fall before your reflection, mirror's don't lie!
I'll slip away, darling!
The cracks in your ceiling...
Are so much more deserving of, your stare than I!

My only certainty is my...
Indecision!
This life is only...
Condensed confusion!
And I feel nothing, anyway!
Numb and hopeless, I'll fade to gray!
And I feel nothing...
If I can't have, you tonight!

It's done so suddenly!
Hate yourself for me!
Cause I can't bring myself to...
Hate the way you smile!
Time is nothing special!
So fast it's not so helpful!
I'm not, so insightful, tell me...
Was I worth your while?

The only bright side is that...
There's no surprises!
My hearts concealed by...
Bad disguises!
And I'll serve you better, all alone!
These tears aren't water, only stone!
And I'll serve you better...
If you cut me, out of your mind!

I'll never forsake truth...
I'll never forget you!
You saved me from more than myself.
I've wasted my chances...
Lost all I needed!
The world that I once loved is hell!
So forget the moments...
And hate me to pieces!
Smile me away as I die.
Live for tomorrow...
And I'll live so hollow!
Your jobs to be perfect, don't cry...
No strength left for vengeance...
No belief in romance!
The things I feel all seem to lie...
I'll crawl forward slowly...
Rotting and lonely!
Degenerating is how I survive...
Surviving but not quite, alive.