Give Me A Reason by Reggie 3/3/2009

So, yet again, it's a new year Winter is shouting with snow and ice while Spring is jumping up and down waiting to have it's turn blowing with rain and flowers

Yet again, it's another another where my sorrows have followed me those weary things, persistant and troublesome Not that I worry, deep down rather only to push them away giving them into the Master's hand

It's a new year where deja vu has strolled through the floors of my heart and life Familiar places, familiar people My family, friends, and even coworkers too all seem to be the make up of my life, how grateful I am

But alas, surely I have made new friends Surely, I have had new experiences Surely, I have had new thoughts and dreams New passions and interests Each year, brings forth new stories to tell

But one thing I need to understand that thing that pushes against my head knocking on my heart, striking my heel heartbeats, blood flows, face gets swelled Familiar feelings, blue and gold, red and pink What is the reason for such promptings?

A trip down memory lane both in games and music the heroes adventures the romancers' promenade around the hall I go only to end up back where I started

I long for new songs, new stories this one is almost over But now I have two urgent developments now Shall I return to the house of my mother?
Attending to my father who's date with cancer is now due Went out for a drink, they did Surely the therapy should help but just in case shall we then be ready for our final cause?

So that other development, I'd say just another job, another opportunity Work, work, work...seems to be all there is But not as much as the first, I soon go to that mark Stay long enough to play, long enough to care No matter what, it should be totall worth it

But thereline lies my final problem That wretched thing of mine, my heart I'd call it likes to tinkle with my head, plagued my eyes smites me with poison, it courses through my veins shall I not crush my heart, although it crushes on another that one or this one, I dare wouldn't say...now

It's no matter....soon I will be, not here any longer Can I find the arrow, the string long enough to carry it all the way through I dare not bother, it seems Because I cannot find a reason why it should be Nevertheless, it's stronger; always strong Can't escape the jaws of attraction Surely, this one is so totally awesome But watching behind a cloak watching her smile, watching her walk I dare not turn visible, lest I be found a fool But the other, I would dare say, for now More promising, more of my delight Would travel to her now if I could Friend indeed yes, but it's all good for now I wish to see things go as far as they can Whether I part now or later, surely this one thing is true what is meant to be, will always be, no matter what

Still....I am not satisfied I need a reason why things aren't so easy 100 things it seems to be at the same time When I travel through one path, another opens When another opens, another one is found and discovered Redundant, persistant, and even lingering the path of life continues to spiral onward God's Sovereignty flies through the universe falls from heaven and searches for all things bringing them to their beginnings and ends nothing will be left undone, as it shall be as it shall be

Do I still search for a reason?
Of course I do, I'm human you know Still, though, reasons are reasons just as grass is grass and the sky is a sky Reasons, given and hidden, are not always the best Nor are they always good, and not always bad Nevertheless, they are always sought and almost never found I guess the only reason for my difficulty in love, in happiness, in pursuit In family, in friends, and in work Is simply because it all happens to us The best reason: God is in control God is Sovereign There are no loose ends, no things left undone To know that all things work together for good to those who love God is the reason given enough for me But still, my thoughts wonder, about love What's it like to secure the right one and find her Please give me a reason for that one still.
No matter what, that always reasons a question