I am sorry

I'm sorry I'm not your

angel

But I have tried, and I have tried

And I have tried.

But I know how many

tears you,

and I, have

cried.

I don't know how to

help you.

I don't know why I still live,

and work for you.

I can't stand it!

So many lies I tell you

Just to get through

the day.

Alive

and/or

breathing,

you make me want to explode.

But I know.

Nothing that I do or say

Is going to make it better in any way.

Every time I speak

I can hear those 'creaks'.

All of our hearts are

breaking.

Why am I

waiting?

It's taking too long

My moment should not come

At least no time soon

anyways

But remember this;

"One day one of us will die.

All because of your stupid

'thoughtful' lies."

02.20.09