After

I stabbed you,

I murdered you.

I viciously destroyed you.

And then I left you alone.

You cut me.

It wasn’t deep.

But it hurt.

It hurts.

A lot.

I deserve it.

Although I wish I didn’t.

Now I am truly alone.

It’s dark.

I am truly alone.

But I am not lost.

I know where I am.

It is cold,

But I know where it’s warm.

I apologized and he accepted my apology.

But I am truly alone.

I should find someone new,

But there’s nobody there.

Nobody like him.

Nobody in this earth

Could replace what I know

What I’ve felt.

Nobody.

I didn’t know that then.

But I know it now.

And it’s hard.

Because it hurts

And it’s cold.

And jealousy is worse.

Ice

Stars

Fire

Jealousy won’t let you let go.

Jealousy won’t let you forget after you’ve been forgiven.

Jealousy won’t go away.

Jealousy doesn’t let you sleep.

Jealousy cuts.

Deeper than the little one

That he caused

Because jealousy is a weighted knife

That sinks deeper into your skin than hate.

Hate wells up.

Jealousy gives no warning.

Jealousy won’t let you run away.

Jealousy won’t let you see.

It blinds you.

It binds you.

And all you want is for it to be over.

All you want is to be back where you were.

All you want is it to be better.

All you want is what you cannot have.

And you know it.

And so does jealousy.

But Jealousy doesn’t care.

So I am the only one.

I’m the one alone.