and this time…

by thursdays and rain

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i type in these words with tears in my eyes

blinded by the fact that there is too much sunshine outside

and i can’t see things clearly.

i thought i knew you.

i didn’t think you were just pretending.

there is too much pain inside and honey, i don’t blame you.

it’s just that you were supposed to be the one -

the only reason why i’m still alive.

well, screw forever and let’s deal with today.

kiss that b*tch on the lips for me and no, i’m not okay.

you tell me you missed me and i almost believed you.

you sounded so convincing on the phone

and i’d love to see you with that cable

around your neck.

sing along with me now, darling

and let’s paint these wrists red

from the bleeding.

whisper those words again in my ear

and try not to ruin the night with

your screaming.

watch me burn your letters with a smile,

your image in my mind slowly fading.

poetry is my murder and

suicide becomes you, dear

and this time, I want you to be the one in

pieces.

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