You were never quite a constant
And I never quite completely fell
I only lingered, waiting, wishing
But you knew me all too well
And to sever ties so eagerly was to
Understate my worth but maybe
We were driven from each other
Just as the force that spins the earth
Brought us together on a Monday
Turned around and saw you there and
Hoped that this time I’d forget and
Become hopelessly ensnared
But I’m hesitant by nature and you’re
Distant to a fault, and so each
Small step that you took towards me
Had no permanent result because
I took your every movement with a
Single grain of salt,

held in my hand to
Measure intent and just how far you’d try to go
Before you realized that my honesty wasn’t
Something to be shown until you’d
Invested too much dignity
Too much trust and too much time
Until your heart between my fingers was a
Wager on the line of a brief prospective romance,
Never really to exist, something you knew far before
I did, and the signal that I missed was my own
Fear at trading all my opportunity for this:

A daytime drama played out with cheap
Cameras and no script, and so looking back
We just can’t find the part that we may have missed
But I’d suppose there was no dialogue, that
You just passed me by because your heart and pride
Were broken and the stakes were much to high for you
To grow up and grow out of your false intelligence
Your whole demeanor is a lie, you’re a breathing overstatement

Of emotion so profound it might just be nonexistent

And so you don’t answer when I call,
Try to back me up against a wall
But I’d checked out before you were able to
Leave your mark on me at all.