Sorry

If you had any idea how I felt about you, I never had a clue. I messed up. I know I did and I’m so sorry you can’t even imagine. I’ve been beating myself up ever since that day I broke up with you. She convinced me that I still loved her when I knew that I didn’t. But all of those memories of us together, just took over. I never should have let her get to me like that. Ever since that day I’ve regretted it. I know I never should have done it. Every day I see you and you seem so happy that it kills me. Are you really happy?

Honestly? No I'm not. To know that you still loved her, it hurt. So much. But I moved on and I have someone new now, and I’m gonna make the best of it. I knew from the moment she texted me and asked if you had talked to yet that something was up. I just didn’t want to believe it. But then you called and ended things with me. I was so surprised. I didn’t think you would actually do that. I asked you if it was about her and you said no. You lied to me. I really hated you for a little while then.

How can you be sure if you really don’t love her anymore? The two of you were together for so long. When you were dating she told me about everything. About your fights and your make-ups, the guys she cheated on when she was with you, when you cheated on her, and every note you wrote her, she let me read. It hurt, but I thought she was a friend, and I wanted her happy.

I see you stare when you see me now and I know what you are thinking.

But, I’m sorry. You blew your chance. You had something great and you ruined it just because you wanted to grasp onto to something that was dead. I think we could’ve been great, but one of us would’ve messed it up eventually. You’re a true player. So just go do what you do best, breaking people’s hearts.

I’m so sorry. I wish you could forgive me. I miss you so much baby. Come back to me.

Sometimes I wish I could, but I just can’t. I can’t take that risk of you breaking my heart again.

As they turned and walked opposite ways, both were thinking the same thought as a single tear rolled down their cheeks.

…“I love you and I’m sorry.”

…“I love you and I’m sorry.”