raining again,

today.

i am fortunate

though...

in allowing myself

to walk out there,

to swallow the drops

and choke

instead of

downing another

glass of clear, liquid

courage

and letting it wash over me,

melt me into the puddle

of what i left

and wash away the color,

leave me in a suit of grey,

no.

i will close my eyes

to swallow the drops

and choke.