“You’re my friend…”

I always loved friends,

People I could count on…

But when is that saying cause pain?

You would think words like that would never hurt,

Unless they were never true,

So when do we know if it is true?

My feelings,

I feel have been pushed aside,

So that they can be seen in their true nature.

Do you feel that they are fake and unreal?

Are they just another one to add to the list?

Or do you see their true intentions?

The feelings I reveal are never lies,

Never false, or backed by false truths,

And never will that change.

I do not continue to bug you about my feelings,

Fearing I will lose what I have,

So I stay back not pushing on.

I fear the unknown,

I fear the pain that I may receive if I return to the unknown again,

Yet, you told me to not to fear…

And here I, fear for so much,

For you and your happiness,

For me, and my fight for joy,

For friends and family,

I fear for them all, which causes my feelings to be true.

But sometimes…

Sometimes I feel that my feelings are pushed away,

Back into the memories of the people I tell,

And there they stay forever,

And I feel my feelings feel left ignored…

And even though I feel with a pure heart,

I feel like I cannot be truly happy without you,

And I feel the fear of forever being alone…

Constantly…

Feeling the fear.