I don’t know what is going on…

My mind wanders…

Only to find things locked away…

The pain I hid,

The fear I ran from,

The tears I shed,

The horrors I saw,

The lies heard,

The regrets I feel…

All come back rushing back into my head…

And I don’t know what to do…

With the people I care about,

With the feelings that I cannot fully understand,

With the work I need to finish,

With the future I hold,

With the past I let go,

The life I wish for…

So different from what it is now…

And so I try…

Try to understand,

Try to let go,

Try to live,

Try to smile,

Try to keep going,

But in the end…

When everything comes back to me…

All I can do is break down and cry…

Cry because of my fears,

Cry because of my unsure future,

Cry because of my losses,

Cry because of my insecurities,

Cry because of my loneliness…