Echo

My phone doesn't ring anymore
I don't spend any money on those long distance calls
Or pay for the many messages I used to send
Suddenly, silence has become my friend

The plane tickets that I bought
All the buses that I caught
Your presence with me, day after day
Slowly, it is all fading away

You're not here, and you're everywhere
All I have to do is look, and you'll be there
In a small memory, in an old photograph
In a quiet echo from a distant past

It screams in my ears
The silence of your absence
The lack of things to say or do
The hole you created and took with you

Everything that's missing
I know you can feel it like I do
But you lock it away, so deep inside
To stop from hurting, you make yourself blind

So you pretend
So you smile
So you make them all believe
In the way you act
They can't see that you bleed

A little more, everyday
But you'll keep telling them you're ok
Because you need them to see
That you're not thinking of me

I'm not there, and you're everywhere
How can you talk to me and think this is fair?
Old memories that won't let me rest
Becoming a quiet echo from a distant past

It screams in your ears
The lies you're putting us through
The lack of things left to say or do
To prove to me what you think you've proven to you

The whole world sees your smile
But I can see beyond the mask

I can see the frightened girl
Who's lost her way
I can see the scared woman
Who ran out of words to say
I can see the one I love
Too terrified to let me stay

It screams in our hearts
The stillness of what we feel
The desire to know whether not this is real
The lack of options
After what we've been through
The need to forgive, not knowing how to

The need to feel, looking for comfort in the wrong place
The need to fix it, trying to fill the empty space
The need to move on, forgetting you left something unfinished
The need to forget, hating yourself because your love hasn't diminished

I'm screaming in your ears
That I still love you, that I'm still here
But my voice won't reach the barriers you created
To protect what's been broken
To protect what I've jaded

You're not here, and you're everywhere
But wherever I look, our love will be there
In a small memory, in an old photograph
Nothing but echoes from the furthest past.

April 20th, 2009.