iv.

hemorrhage emotion until the edges of the words rub together & the letters
question their very own meaning; spin the world on its shuddering axis
& remember how the boundaries & the hate cannot be viewed from space;
turn me upside down on the playground equipment hanging from my knees
until the lies & the maggots swirling in my stomach all spill out of my mouth & --

(remind me how these parenthetical
endings are all the goodbyes
i don't quite know how to make.)