Author's Note:

Hey guys! I made another one-shot. LOL, still romance. I know this is a bit early, I just want to say sorry for the my wrong grammar usage in some parts, dunno if they're wrong or not haha... and if there are misspelled words, sorry for that too. haha! I'm still studying english. -___- So, yeah, I'm not gifted to be an American. XD Anyway, please guys, READ and REVIEW! That will definately make me happy! :)

Uncertain Fool

by: Faithmemory

Those jade-colored eyes, those peach lips, dark colored hair, his awesome height and his image of intelligence. I’m in love with this guy! I’m in love with him since the very first day of my high school. When I first saw him, ‘perfect’ was my first impression of him. He’s good-looking, tall and for some reason, he stands out. Then, little by little I learned things about him. He is from the star-section of the school, a genius and almost all the girls here like him.

“Aya-chan!” a familiar voice called me

I’m standing at the second floor of our high school building, watching Wataru-senpai sitting calmly on a bench in the school garden, holding a book with his glasses. Aww… he is prince-like. The transparent ray of the sun shines at him like a spot light bringing that black hair of his, a glossy look and his skin glitters.

“Yeah?” I replied to my friend turning to her who was running towards me, “What is it, Nami?”

She stopped in front of me, bending down with her hands on her knees, gasping for air. “What’s up with her?” I thought.

I laughed at her, from watching her breathing in a hasty manner; I turned around and saw Wataru-sempai walking towards us. I quickly bowed my head down to hide my blushing face. Nami bowed her head for a second.

“Ohayou! Wataru-sempai” she greeted casually

He stopped in front of me, “Ohayou! Nami-chan” he greeted back, and then I felt like he bends down and I just saw face is close to mine!

“Ohayou, Aya-chan” he said with a smile on his face

I quickly stood straight and panic, as always, “Ohayou…Wataru-sempai” I replied to him, blushing.

He walked pass us, holding his book. “I really like his back…” I sighed.

Nami chuckled, “Come on! Class is going to start! What is so special about his back?” she asked.

His back is so manly; he looks strong even if you are just staring at his back. I can recognize him even if he’s not facing me, his back, I know it. I like him even more! After knowing him little by little with a slight help with an out-going girl like, Nami, I made friendship with him. Even thou he’s three years older than me, somehow, we clicked. I like him so much. I want to confess my love for him, right this very moment.

****

Classes dismissed. I went to my looker room to get some books so I could bring them back home. As I walk, I saw images of Wataru-sempai inside my mind. Gorgeous images. “Woah, I’m completely falling for him!” I though. The school hall was empty, well, it should be. I mean it’s already five o’clock. “My head hurts. I hate club meetings... It always lasts for an hour. I always end up going home pretty late...”

As I walk the hall, I saw him… “Wataru-sempai, what is he doing here, this late?” Wataru-sempai’s back is already familiar with me. The sunset sun ray shines at his black hair, giving off some of its glossy look. That is definitely Wataru-sempai, that hair, that back, that’s him. He is walking towards the exit door holding his bag with his two hands at the back of his head. My heart skips another beat, and my face, is turning red again. I like him so much… no… I think I love him. This is my first time admiring someone who gives me a blush all the time. My first time liking someone, I want to confess my love for him, right this very moment.

I ran to him without even thinking what to do and stopped in front of him then bowed my head, “I—I like you!!” I shouted as I quiver. I raised my head to see his reaction but—

“Gahhh!!! He’s not Wataru-sempai!!!”

This guy… He has black hair just like Wataru-sempai, OH NO! A wrong guy! What should I do? So embarrassing! I can’t maintain my straight stand anymore! I could not understand what I’m feeling right now. How embarrassing, I bet he thinks so highly of himself now. NO!

I saw him blushing then he starts to scratch the back of his head.

“I like you too…” he said with a really huge and profound voice.

“What—the heck—is—this?”

****

Because of that really really awkward confession, we ended up being on this chocolate shop. One of his favorite place, he said.

“So does this mean… we’ll go out?” he asked while placing a cup of hot cocoa drink on our table.

I still could not believe that he likes me, HA! I just can’t believe it. Kamazawa Daiki, in class D, with two skull piercing in his right ear, yeah it’s him so far from Wataru-sempai.

“You there?” he asked

“Ah! Yeah, still here...”

“No, if I told him that he’s not the one I like... He’ll definitely look stupid.”

I took a quick drink at my cup decorated by cute chocolate bars. And, it taste really good. “Wahh... I love chocolates…”

“Taste great, right?” he asked with a gentle smile on his face.

I was caught for a moment by his mild smile. I just could not believe that, he, a guy from class D and with a lot of bad rumors, likes me… and chocolates.

I placed my cup down, “Yep! Pure chocolate!” I replied to him cheerfully.

For some reason, I pitied him when he confessed his love for me, because, I don’t know him and never liked him. The person I like is Wataru-sempai, the confession was for him. I just mistakenly thought he’s Wataru-sempai, a mistake. I don’t want him to feel stupid or be embarrassed, so I won’t tell him the truth. Looking at him take his first sip at his cup, is quite depressing. Just like this hot sweet cocoa drink.

****

“WHAT?!” Nami screeched, “You confessed to the wrong guy?!” she continued with a really annoying look on her face.

”yep~” I said with my half eye closed, “A really stupid mistake!” I added as drop my face directly on the table because of despair.

Nami quickly sat down on the chair next to me, “Tell me what happened!!” she said excitedly. Annoying.

I raised my head and faced Nami; I grasp her cheeks and drag it close to mine, “I confessed to a wrong guy!”

“AND?”

“The darn guy, confessed back…” I said timidly, releasing her cheeks.

“EHH~?!!” she yelled with disbelief.

I knew it; I bet she’s thinking how dumb I was. But his back, I was wrong. And because of the careless mistake, I met him.

“Yeah… and the worst part is…”

Nami calmed down and I felt like she’s waiting for me to say ‘the worst part’.

“The guy’s name is… class D’s Kazama Daiki.”

I can’t explain how creepy Nami’s reaction. She was so clueless and I can obviously predict that she could not believe the name.

Nami sat back at her chair, “Talk about bad luck, that guy is the leader of some bad-ass assembly…” she said while rocking her chair.

I won’t believe it. Seeing his smile yesterday, I think it’s a mistake. Yeah, he may look like a ‘fox’ --- what? Did I just call him a fox? Anyway, yeah, he may look like that; there is something special in his warm smile. And he likes chocolate, so, what kind of bad guy likes chocolate?

I can’t believe I’m lying. I’m stuck with the guy I don’t even know, because of a mistake and misunderstanding. I don’t want to see him feeling stupid, he likes me, and it’s a shame in his part if I tell him that my confession is not meant for him. Yes, I’m this kind of person. I hide things that could hurt others.

****

“Another day... is done, so fast” I said as I close my locker.

I turned around and saw Wataru-sempai doing laps in the school field. He’s beautiful, the sweat he gives out showers away as he run, and the sun shines through it that made it glitter. Seeing him run gracefully made my day. It’s been like a week since I last saw him.

Even if I confessed to the wrong guy, the real person I like is Wataru-sempai. And nothing could ever change that, my love for him is everlasting.

“Aya…” a deep voice called me. With wonder, I turned around and saw him… Kazama Daiki standing in the hall way with his head leaning against the wall and the orange sunset light behind him traces the edges of his body.

I’m not being fair to this guy, huh? He is giving me so much love, but, I couldn’t give it back to him. His dark eyes are so dense, he doesn’t have any idea how I play tricks on him. I pity him even more.

“Let’s walk home together” he invited with a plain look on his face.

I really don’t know what he feels. But looking at his face, I think he worries about something. His eyes, they’re plain and blank. His face looks gentle and timid.

I turned around again to see Wataru-sempai, he’s gone. I bet he went home already. And I turned to him again; saw Daiki wears his most gentle smile, waiting for me.

With hesitation, “Okay” I agreed.

It’s been a week Daiki and I going home together. I don’t like it; I’m just fooling him and myself. I’m scared to tell him the truth, but why?

****

We always walk together. Walking pass by the river close to school is routine for us, watching the sunset everytime the day ends. We pause at the top of a little cliff before the small river, and watched the sunset towards us.

As we wait for the sun to set, I looked at Daiki and he was staring at the sun. The deep orange color of the sun painted his face. He’s quiet, always quiet. I’m hearing my wrist watch ticking, I glance at it and it’s almost five o’clock. I look back to the sun and saw it slowly going down, behind the mountains. Beautiful scenery, I always wait for this. And I’m happy, that Daiki allowed us to see it again.

“Hey~” he said

I look at him and still, he stares straight at the sun setting down, “What is it?” I asked.

“I have something for you…” he said as he reaches for something in his empty bag. I always thought that guys at class D doesn’t care about schooling. That is why their bags look so empty and weighs like feather all the time.

“Here…” he said, giving me a ‘keychain’ that twinkled for a second because of the ray of the sun.

I saw a keychain shaped like a chocolate bar with a little ribbon on it. So pretty, so cute, I like it. I took it without saying anything. Saw him scratching at the back of his head. Aww, he’s embarrassed and he’s blushing…

“Thank you…” I said cheerfully as I clutch the keychain tightly.

“Don’t mention it…” he replied in an arrogant manner

Aww… this is his first gift to me. I’m so happy! He’s a nice guy, huh? Never expect this to happen. I think I’m smiling, made me really happy. I realize that half of the sun is now hiding behind the mountains. The sun hides behind the mountains, reminds me of myself, hiding the truth.

“Are you in a hurry…going home?” he asked breaking the silence again.

I’m such an idiot still hugging the keychain in my hand. I look at him and he smile at me, “Not really…” I said. He must be waiting for that answer because he was kind of in relief when he heard it.

“Let’s go astray in the city!” he said with a huge grin in his face. He grabbed my hand and pulled me and started running.

“Wait~!!” I shouted as we run, I was worried about the keychain on my hand, the one being pulled by him. It might fall.

We went to arcade and played a lot of games, his treat! It’s getting late, seven o’clock and we’re still here enjoying every second. The colorful light twinkles like Daiki’s eyes. We went walking around the busy city at night, and my keychain swings in my bag. I’m enjoying this, I like this.

We stopped by “Platonic”, Daiki’s favorite chocolate shop. We entered the shop and I smell the delicious chocolate aroma. I love chocolate. He ordered two cocoa drinks, my favorite and sat down in a table next to a huge window that could see the liveliness of the night streets.

Eh? Something strikes me just now… a question. I look at Daiki who was sitting the opposite sit, in front of me.

“Daiki…” I whispered, and I think he heard me very clearly that he look back at me.

“What is it?” he asked.

I don’t know why I’m hesitant to ask him this question I got in my mind just now. Silence again was felt between us, so uncomfortable.

“What made you like me?” I continued.

He leans at his seat and I saw a smirk and crossed his arms at the lower part of his huge chest. Does he think I’m joking asking him that question?

“Saw you at the opening ceremony at the start of high school…” he said still on that position, “And I like you ever since then…” he added.

”Love at first sight?” I asked. I really don’t like things like that; it’s not love at all. Liking someone just because you saw the person, not that. I saw Wataru-sempai at first, but I learn things about him… that made me like him. But this?

“No” he said in a deep tone, “From then on, I began watching you. Up until you confessed your feelings for me…” he continued.

Up until I confessed my feelings for him… oh yeah, the mistake that I’ve done.

He sat straight and place his long arms at the table, “I like everything about you…” he then said.

“But, you don’t know me yet” I whined.

He leaned back again and placed his arms on his bosom, “I know. That is why I want to spend a lot of time with you, so I could learn things about you and know what other things I like…”

“So, you already like all things about me, even if you still don’t know what they are?” I asked in a confused way.

“In short, I will like you no matter who you are…”

I think this is wrong. Will you still like me if I say that the confession is not meant for you? Will you still like me or will you hate me? Wataru-sempai is the one I really like and nothing could change that.

“Why are you crying?” I heard him asked. I realized tears are flowing down on my eyes, warm tears from my eyes. The bitterness and aches that I feel right now, is unbearable.

I’m happy that you confessed your feelings for me for the second time. But, I don’t deserve it. It’s nice to sit here, enjoying a hot cocoa drink together with you. I don’t deserve such love like this. It’s too unfair for you.

****

I think what happened yesterday made Daiki worry. I didn’t realize that I was crying in front of him already. We separated in an awkward way. I wasn’t able to tell him the truth. But his words yesterday, changed something in me. I’m not sure what that is but, I feel like I’m not ‘me’ right now.

Here I’ am walking alone in a busy hall way. I glimpse at the window beside me. Ahh, its Wataru-sempai sitting in the garden bench again. I stopped there for a minute to stare at him. Creepy, huh. I missed him and never talked to him for a long time now. Eh? He’s looking this way!

There he is looking at my way, looking at the second floor of the building. He smiles at me and then waves. I smile back at him but didn’t wave. He raised his hand and made a sign of ‘come here’. Yeah, I read it. He wants me to there I’m sure.

So I went running down with random thoughts in my head. Finally, I get to talk to him now, alone! This is my chance to confess to the right person, to Wataru-sempai. I run down the stairs like crazy, but not as nervous as I was the last time I saw him.

As I reached the school garden, I saw him standing there. Smiling at me, a bit weird though even if I’m looking at him directly, I’m not feeling same as before. Wataru-sempai is the person I like, right? But, why do ‘am I not feel so excited right now.

****

We sat the bench he was sitting at earlier. This is a bit uncomfortable sitting next to him in this situation. I could clearly hear the sound of the birds’ wings, flying from one branch to another. The huge tree at our back covers the bright sun above us. And the shadow of the leaves in the ground looks as nostalgic as it sways.

“I’ve got two tickets for a movie tomorrow…” he started, “Will you come with me?” he added.

I’m shock. Is he asking me out?

“Why me?” I asked looking straight to his face.

“Well, I asked Nami-chan but she told me that you like this kind of movie” he said.

That made me disappointed for some reason. I bow my head and felt a bit weird. This is not right, I’m getting really confused.

I really thought that this will make me happy. Wataru-sempai, is asking me out for a movie, because Nami told him to. I should be happy by now even with that disappointing reason, but like I’ve said before… I’ve changed.

****

“What?!! You declined his offer?!” Nami shouted again, with disbelief. I’m always surprising her, right?

“Yeah, I didn’t accept the invitation…” I replied in a sleepy tone.

“But why?! I thought you like him?!”

“Yeah, I do like him, but I can’t right now.”

She sat next to me and she place her hand in my shoulder, “Is it because of Kazama?!” she asked.

Wow. I couldn’t answer her question. I can straightly say “NO” but I just couldn’t lie anymore. I had enough lies! I can’t lie to myself anymore; I don’t want to be fooling around anymore.

“Listen to me…” Nami said, “You guys started, because of your mistake. You confessed to him because you ‘thought’ that he’s Wataru-sempai, right? Now, you HAVE TO just dump him and confess to the RIGHT guy already, Aya!” she said desperately.

I pushed her away from me. That is so STUPID! I thought. Well, it is! I can never do that to Daiki. Why should I? I’m the stupid here!

Before I could open my mouth and defend Daiki, I saw him… standing outside of our classroom door, holding a box, and plainly looking at me. I don’t really know what’s playing in his mind. I bet he hates me, say something idiot!

“Daiki…” I whispered.

Nami removed her arms around my shoulder and turns around, she was shock to see him that made her cover her wide open mouth. I was shocked too. Awkward silence, we met again. His hands that were leaning at our classroom door slides down. And he left.

“Aya, sorry…” Nami cried as I stand up.

“I’m crying aren’t I?” I asked, I feel lonely tears down my cheeks, “I’m crying silently, aren’t I?” I asked again.

“Aya…”

I ran after him after all. Right now, I’m running in the lonely empty corridor in search for him. The hall way is painted orange, because of the sunset. I don’t know where my tears are going; all I understand is these tears are for him. For, Daiki, I’m sure of it, this is not a mistake. Aya! Run faster!! Run like you’ve never run before! I searched him, on my right, no, my left, he’s not there! Run some more Aya!

I’m sorry Daiki, you don’t deserve this. I’m so sorry for my stupidity! I didn’t tell you everything because I only speak for my mind. Sorry. I didn’t mean this to happen. I was scared of hurting a stranger, afraid of making you look stupid and be embarrassed but, sorry, I just made it worst…

There he is! Weird, he’s standing there watching the sunset, again.

“Daiki~!!” I shouted in a dry tone, I don’t know if he heard or if he turned to me, I ran to him.

“I’m sorry!” I cried holding his arms, he wasn’t startled at all. He is still staring at the sun, waiting for it to set. Why can’t you say something?!

“I thought so…” he said, he looked at me with a smile on his face

“What?” I asked. What is this?! He thought about what?! Is he happy? He should be angry at me, right?

“I like you and of course, I know things about you…” he said looking back at the sun, “Even before the day we met, I already knew you like him...” he continued.

“Eh?!” I asked this is confusing me, he knows it?

“You, glancing at him in the window, watching him do laps, admiring him from a far; it didn’t shock me at all…”

He’s watching me all along? He knows them, the little things I do just to see Wataru-sempai. He knows it after all, but why didn’t he tell me?

“If you want me to be shock, then you did it already” he continued, the smile on his face vanished for some reason.

“The day you confessed that you like me, made me in state of shock…” he said, “Because I never thought of you, liking me.”

“Daiki…”

I couldn’t move my hands slide down his arms. I can’t believe him. I’m such a huge fool. I’m motionless and speechless. Without even realizing, the half of the sun is hiding behind the mountains, Daiki left. I was left sitting helplessly in the ground.

I’m sorry, I’m such an idiot. If only I could speak out of my mind, I could clearly tell you how much I like you! Watching the orange colors of the setting sun with you was wonderful. Those happy times, in such a short span of time was wonderful. I’m sorry, Daiki. I didn’t tell you the truth earlier, because I know that if I did tell you, I’ll feel sorry for you. But, right now, sad because I feel sorry for my self…

Author's Note:

Hey! how's reading? XD Sorry about the weird ending...haha! I just could not think of a better ending, so I left it like that, for a moment I think. haha~ If I thought of something great, I'll add it here as the ending. XD

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