You Know

I still remember your face. After all this time I still remember you face. I hated you but after time I found I couldn’t hate you anymore. You were the most annoying person in my life back then. I wanted so badly to punch you and knock some of those teeth out of your pretty face. I didn’t though.

In my eyes you were the popular and I was the geek. Funny really when I think of it now. As true as that may have been I don’t really think that way now; to some point of course, but not really. Now I just see you as an annoying boy who was seriously looking for a fight.

I don’t know you anymore but back then you were like the nightmare of the school. I gotta laugh I guess it really wasn’t that bad. I just really hated you. I still remember coming home and telling my mother about you and your dumb attitude.

I still remember you in the science lab or in the classroom. Those stupid faces you’d make and your slide remarks that were suppose to be insults. Now I just laugh looking back but back then you really pissed me off. I kinda wish I had handled things differently but I was a kid and handled things like the little shy kid I was.

I wanted to be noticed but I didn’t want to get into trouble. You can’t usually have both I learned that later. I just wish I had known that then. It would have saved me a hell of a lot of work at the time.

Thinking back I remember this one time where we were taking a test in class and you tried to say I was cheating. It’s funny because we were both looking around the room but I was the one cheating. I should have asked what you were doing looking around the room. Were you cheating too? It’s kinda funny but instead of was kind of nervous because I thought my teacher was going to believe him instead of me.

I guess I was a good student because the teacher believed me when I told her I hadn’t cheated. I had studied hard for that test I didn’t want to take it over. Still, it may have been better if I’d taken it again; I got a pretty bad grade anyways. Yeah, go ahead and laugh. If I had cheated I may have done better, wouldn’t you all agree?

I remember this other time where you gave me this stupid look. The only thing I remember really where your lime green braces. Now I think it’s really funny because they looked so tacky. I should have told you, but I didn’t. You could have used the warning though, because your braces stuck out like a sore thumb. None the less, it was really funny – at least I thought it was.

I wonder what you would have said if I had told you that back then? You probably would have made a stupid remark and I would have been left standing like the idiot I used to be.

In a way, I almost wish we were going to school together now. I wonder how different our “relationship” would be. Would you still be the annoying bully to me – I doubt it – or would we just ignore each other? Anything else I’d rather not consider. Things like us being friends? Now this is something I know would never happen or at least I think it’s a slim to none chance. I don’t really know you though.

After all the years we went to school together I never really knew anything about you except who your best friend was and I only knew that because it was obvious. Sadly, I never took the time to learn anything else about you. I’m kind of mad at myself for that because I just don’t like that. It makes me think of my younger self as an idiot really. Which I must say is really pathetic on my part.

Speaking of idiots, I always got the impression that you thought of me as an idiot. I always wanted to ask you, but I never did. Looking back I wonder if that’s really what you thought, I guess I’d be interested to know now. It’s a bit late though I hate to say it.

Oh well, I suppose it’s not really a big deal. It would have been nice to know at the time though. I can live without though.