Afraid

by Pixie L. Rigsby

If asked a month ago,

if our relationship was strong,

I would've said yes in a heartbeat

and thought nothing could go wrong.

I am afraid to tell you

what has been on my heart.

It has been too long now

and I don't know where to start.

Things aren't as okay as I thought

they'd be if I kept pretending.

I am confused, now you are too

with the mixed messages I keep sending.

I'm afraid to say because I know

I can't take back what's spoken.

I wish things could be the way they were

before my trust and heart were broken.

I love you with everything I have.

I want so hard to believe

that you want to stay with me

and do not want to leave.

Let me cry it out on your shoulder

and you can kiss the tears away.

Just hold me in your arms and

tell me everything will be okay.

and maybe, just maybe

it may.