Chapter 14

Third Quarter Final Essay

Shanah Hiles
period 2

I don't even know how this happened. I'm 3 months pregnant with my English teacher's child, and he's ended up in jail. I don't regret it... I wish it'd ended differently - I never wanted to get him in trouble. But I don't regret what happened, and I know everyone wants me to say that I did. But you know what? Maybe it was just lust, but I didn't do it for grades, and he didn't take advantage of me. I knew what was going on and I wanted it, too. And he cared about me. We both knew the possible consequences. They just... didn't seem real until... Everything went wrong the day the police showed up at my house. My mom had no clue what was going on, but I knew. The flash of Kyle's camera took us completely by surprise. It seems so unfair... after everything that happened, one tiny slip up ruined it. After everything we'd done, he kissed me once on the forehead after class - in an otherwise empty classroom - to comfort me because I was sick. Or I thought I was sick. It was just the pregnancy.
This all seems so unrealistic. I've never been popular. But I'm starting to show - and I thought I was an outcast when it had just been revealed. People point at me and whisper behind my back. The whole school knows what happened. And it's none of their business, it's none of anyone's business but mine and Mr. Bryant. Everything we did was consensual on both sides. So what if he's my teacher? I wasn't getting grades out of it. Kyle got nosy, and the police got involved, and then I was whisked away into Ms. Grant's English class. Nobody will talk to me. Even Katie, my best friend, acts like I don't exist. I can feel the stares of my classmates, I'm struggling to keep decent grades in the classes that I was passing easily before, all because of the stress. I miss him with every fiber of my being, he kept me going when this all just started. I wonder if any of this would have even happened if stupid Ally hadn't...
God, Mr. Bryant, I've never needed anyone so much. I love you... Andy...

A/n: I... I guess that's the end? Everything feels so empty now, I've been writing this story for over a year - and suddenly I write five chapters and it's just gone? Like that?
God, life just sucks, doesn't it?
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